a usually ok read....

it all started with a cup of coffee...

2011-01-30T11:50:00.004-06:00

Today i want to write about Egypt.. well not specifically Egypt but more what has been happening in Egypt and across the entire world. From wars to floods, earthquakes, fires, tsunami's, viral pandemics to incredibly wide spread poverty.

As i woke up this morning i started thinking of what i had to do today, what errands needed running what i would eat for the day, what i would wear, but as i was having my coffee i started to feel a need to read up on Egypt, The more i read the more i felt lead to pray, to pray hard not only for Egypt but the people of the world. If you look back as far as last January even, to Haiti and the massive earthquake for me it all kind of started with that, but in 2010 there were numerous massive historical events taking place, in many countries, the Hatians had the earthquake, Pakistan, Austrailia, iran, china, and most of eastern Americas had flooding, some places devastating, and the effect i think we are all feeling the most is the financial problems.

Clearly something is happening in the world. If you read back in the bible there are stories like this. Stories of nation raising against nation, floods and fires, nations raising against their leaders. I fail to see how this is much different from the present. If we were to see things through the eyes of Jesus, If we could open our eyes we would see that these things happening in the world are not just political problems but wars of the heavenly realms.

Christianity in the world today is not only frowned upon but in most places forbidden and in most schools and work places illegal. why do you think that is? because people don't like confrontation? I think it because the enemy has a very strong hold on this world, and is working hard to shut down any one who expresses faith in God. I think the real reason for the avoidance of allowing Christianity is based on fear. Fear of the sheer unstoppable power of God. Fear that if we (Christians) are not suppressed and distracted, we will realize the full potential of the power of God within us. God didn't make a mistake in putting you where you are today, he put you where you are for a purpose. He placed us all in various parts of the world, and if we could just open our eyes and ears to what has been really going on. join in prayer to fight back. think of the power of God that would be released from that.

Today I pray that the holy spirit would begin to open your eyes, ears and hearts, to see that what has been happening is not of this world but a spiritual war. That we would not be so distracted by our everyday lives and routines and as children of God would put on the spiritual armor of God and band together to fight and stand against the enemy like one massive web of faith spreading to every point of the earth.

2009-09-21T16:25:00.001-06:00

Brining back the blog!

2008-02-04T00:41:00.000-06:00

So I was goingthrough my old post on here and came to realize that no one blogs anymore! whats with this. every one is all into Facebook.... and I am not sayingthats bad, I happen to be a facebook addict lol. But i am saying that we need the blog back. We need rndomness and posts, and comments and yada yada yada. so Startingtoday i will be back to my semi daily posting again, because I love it and find it a great tool for communication and just all around getting my thoughts out so this is the official start of the new blogging season. soon to come i will renew the look ofthe captians lounge, and getnew links, cool info and games and quizzes and much fun to come so check back and ttyl blogger fans

Saskatoon in need

2007-09-05T10:58:00.000-06:00

Saskatoon has some problems that people are just ignoring. Rents are increasing, no rent caps in place, Appartments are being converted in to condos,there is a Zero vacancy rate, Buildings are being sold and people are given three months to find a new place or they are left to the street.

Recently on the news they released a statement saying that The YWCA had turned down just over 500 people and family's because of lack of rooms and resources. They also stated that Gordie how park was packed to overflow this summer with families with no where to go. The Salvation army has been turning down people for the last few months because they just simply can't help anyone. The city has no room for people. It's not only shelters that are packed to the limmit but also appartments and housing. With recent housing costs rising alot of people are not able to afford where they are living. I have a freind who has been living with his wife in their little two bedroom for over 23 years, Two months ago they got a notice saying that the rent was going up by $240. Now after 23 years they have to move out of their home.

It has gotten to the point where people are desperate to find anywhere to stay. Its getting to cold to stay outside with fall comming. People are rentinng out basements,Garages, and even couches, but still there is a great need. I am asking people to not only pray for the people, but to take action. If you have an extra room, or a basment that could fit a bed, or even know of anyone who would be willing to take in a person or two, or heck even have a couch. People would be willing to rent it.

Also my Mom has a bible study group that has started a food relief program, already they have donated, 6-8 food packs to the college park area alone. They are called the college park bible study, and its made up of like 6 old ladies doing what they can, but even that is helping. If any one knows of anything they can do to help please email me at mailme53@gmail.com, or comment or leave a post on my facebook, or what ever lol.

Ps. IF you or anyone you know of is interested in donating or getting involved with the food relief program, please email Joanne at chaben48@hotmail.com

Picture caption fun....

2007-05-21T11:24:00.000-06:00

Boys and girls its picture caption fun time again..... thats right..... 4 pictures 4 chances to win!
The rules:
I will post some pictures and and then in the comments area you guys can leave comments of what you think the person/animal in the pictures are saying. Then i will pick the best one form each picture who wins. (note: I have a prize for the winner!!!!)

picture #2

2007-05-21T11:15:00.000-06:00

Picture #3

2007-05-21T11:10:00.000-06:00

Picture #4

2007-05-21T11:00:00.000-06:00

Crazy storm pics.... wathc the funnel cloud form

2007-05-16T00:09:00.000-06:00

Hey all so here are some crazy photos of that storm we had a few days ago. The news said it was an actual tornado, and I believe them and you can see why if you look at the photos..... these particular pictures are taken from my parking lot. you can see how close the funnel cloud was to my third floor appartment. Lol me and Devin had been watching the storm roll in and then all of a sudden we hear this loud rumbling sound and the floor started shaking and the hail started.....thats when we shut everything down and basically ran out of the building lol. I have been in tornados before but never that close to the funnel clouds lol. it was deffinetly interesting and adrenaline rush for sure.

Also here is a link to the rest of the pics of the storm on my brothers photo share http://photoshare.shaw.ca/view/3917981587-1179010964-78301/

A good quote

2007-04-28T20:31:00.000-06:00

To do anything in this world worth doing, we must not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger, but jump in, and scramble through as well as we can

I GOT AN IPOD!!!!

2007-04-24T22:57:00.000-06:00

well just like the tittle says.....

I bought myself an ipod nano!
I told myself that if i graduated I would reward myself and i finally got up the courage to just go and blow $80 on a big purchase.... a very sexy little silver ipod...... I love it thanks josh!

2007-04-14T20:52:00.000-06:00

You Are a Pundit Blogger!

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

The results are in....

2007-04-11T21:24:00.000-06:00

I got the results of my GED and well.... I passed everything!!!. And strangely enough math was the highest mark i got.... i hate math... it doesn't even make sense.It turns out that I finnished in the top 20%, witch means that my marks were higher than 80% of the high school graduates in the prvence this year.....how cool is that... haha i am smart.... smrt.... lol.... anyway that was my good news this week, and also my parents gave me like $70 because i passed to witch is great cause its all going to bills lol.

I also went for my Sasktel interview today and it went really well, I messed up on some questions in the simulation sales test but thats because i couldn't think of anything to sel and started to get nervous, but she said i did well anyway. anyway she is calling me back by friday with the final results and for the third interview... wonder when i get to know if i am hired or not... or will the whole job be interviews lol.

now the only stress left for me is finding a place witch is strating to get harder everyday and i have a few reasons why but i hope i find one soon.... scratch that.... I have to find one soon... or i am going to be sleeping on some one elses floor until this city realizes that students are able to pay rent..... sorry i am a little bitter on the housing issue right now.. lol. but anyway I am very excited about passing and really hope that i will get this job with sasktel. See God is faith full, and anything is possible with him. I graduated, and graduated within the top 20% of people in Saskatchewan..... thats crazy.... Thank you God.

I've been tagged!!... I tag you!!..... thats right you the one reading this... MWHAHAHAA!!

2007-04-09T21:44:00.000-06:00

so I guess i have been tagged with the newest blog craze..... 6 wierd things no one knows about me.... well ok... her goes.( in countdown order )

6. I own one skirt and a small amount of make up,out of all my jeans and cargo pants, and all my hoodies and t-shirts i own a single little denim skirt that I have worn around the house on occasion....some times a girl just needs to feel like a girl lol.

5. I love grapefruits, sometimes i eat them like oranges.... just like that.

4. I hate cake, and most baked goods.... I hate them its weird i know (except ice cream cake!!)

3. I really like country music.... I don't know why no one knows that... but kenny chesney, gretchen wilson, racall flatts, I love those bands

2. I am TERRIFIED of clowns.... ugghhh I hate clowns... they scare the crap pout of me. I don't know where this came from but I think as far as i can remeber i have hated them.. the other day Devin called me in the living room and had steven kings it playng and paused it right on penny wises face...... grrr i punched him lol.

1. the dreaded number one..... ok ready this one is really weird... I was born with a tail!!! lol no just kidding its not that weird but its pretty funny... are you readdy for the real thing... ok fine here it is.... I am a sleep walker & talker... seriously I have waken up doing some weird things lol, I am such a solid sleeper that I can handle phone calls, re-setting my alarm clock, and tackle full conversations in my sleep. One time I aranged a job interview with a woman and then later she called back wondering where i was and I had no idea what she was talking about or who she was. and infact just the other day i went to bed in my purple comfy pants and a hoodie and woke up wearing my scrub pants and a T-shirt.
so yes that is my 6 weird things... now I have tagged you (the reader) so go tell the world your 6 weird things and tag some one else lets see how big we can get this thing lol.

AHHH!

2007-03-29T20:42:00.000-06:00

that is pretty much what is going through my head tonight. I write my GED tomorrow and Saturday, and am not in the least bit prepared. I mean I am I know everything I need to know but I am sitting here thinking ok.... so what is the length of the hypotenuse? ok so to solve that you use a^2 +b^2 = c^2 if we are solving for c then we know a and be.... and crazy stuff like that but I will do fine, I am passing everything in school
so I do not know why I am freaking out lol. but anyway i will post more tomorrow because now I have to go study

Praise out the hate! lol

2007-03-22T23:01:00.001-06:00

Gods calling.....

2007-03-21T22:46:00.000-06:00

Ok so I have mentioned on here a few times before that God has given me a vision...mission so to speak. Well Finally I have come to the conclusion that life is pointless with out God, and it is also pointless if you keep on ignoring what God wants for you. For years probably about 3 years now, I have had this vision from God, this purpose for my life but I have been to stubborn and terrified to do a thing about it.
I had a vision of starting a HUGE missionary organization that could change the city for the good of Christ,change the youth, change the parents, change everything. but I was so afraid of it, afraid of what it could become. I was also afraid that I would fail,fail the people, fail the youth, fail every one, but most importantly fail God.So i did nothing and continued to live in this angering spiral of denial and frustration and failure..... but recently i stumbled across an opportunity that has really helped me a lot, I have been in school now for almost 3 months, I am 3 weeks away from finishing, me graduating with a grade 12..., and because I friggen aced my CPR and first aid, I got an opportunity to work with ST. Johns ambulance where i will get the complete training i need to be a licensed first responder witch is one step short of actual paramedic! I am happy about that, but more than all of this, God put me in this school to show me that 1. he believed in me all along, and 2.that i am not just a useless sack of crap. Also that just because I am certified in all of this now doesn't mean that his will for my life is going away lol.

I have prayed a lot, thought a lot lately and came to one conclusion.... yes the vision is big, but yes it can be done..... I am going to start a youth group....well I am not, i am just a pawn in the game of life, but God is going to... God showed me the church, its a very humble little downtown church with a congregation of about 40 people..... I have only gone there about 3 times but I am already close with that family,. Its got hard wood pews, old dusty retro green curtains (love the retro thing by the way lol) the carpet is old and ratty, but the church, the people, are so full of Gods love,. I can't exactly explain it but I mean, I walked in there and saw a youth group... in detail... I saw the kids hanging out, I saw people praying, I saw kids laughing and joking.... none of it was there but I could still see it... I know now what I am to do, and am starting to understand how to do it.
I haven't cleared this with the church yet or even talked to them about it yet, but I am sure they will be on board, I have no youth yet, no band nothing, no staff but I know God will send what he needs to be done, if we need a band he will send one, if we need staff he will find them, if we need kids.... he will bring them.... I know i must sound completely insane but this is with out a doubt the surest i have been about anything in a really long time.

an inner city ministry for Saskatoon youth,a safe welcoming place where kids can come, and get off the street away from the crime, and immorality and have a fun good time and just be the kids god created them to be. while doing this they can learn about Jesus and the gospel, and how to live it out in their own lives. a weekly meeting involving music, fellowship, and Gods love, creating a community of youth that God has chosen to help be a key part in changing the attitude city.
I am going to ask that if anyone who reads this can just pray for it, pray for the church, the youth, the staff, the group, pray for the vision, and pray that God will be the one in charge, otherwise its just not going to work, it will be like so many other pointless things in life, this has to be from God.
anyway this post is getting stupidly long lol so I will go now, but as things progress I will post more but please comment on this, I am in no way shape or form an experienced missionary....God called me and I answered, simple as that.... but Please pray for the group, that the church will allow it, and that The enemy will not have any power to stop this from happening.... because its going to happen..... lol....

hahaha funny pictures

2007-03-03T01:29:00.000-06:00

once an enfp always an enfp... lol

2007-02-27T22:06:00.000-06:00

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)

Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal.

Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

( I am not sure how cautios I am though lol)

relient k "breakdown"

2007-02-19T22:34:00.000-06:00

here is a good song for when life gets stressful... listen to it... its good

Oh, what a lousy excuse for a car.
One mile to go, but I can't push it that far.
I think I've had enough.
I think I'm giving up.
Saved up my money to buy a new guitar.
Then I got ripped off by the guy who fixed my car.
I think I've had enough.
I think I'm giving up.
Once again life's thrown me a curve,
and it blew up right in my face.
Once again life's rattled my nerves.
Don't you see that I'm stuck in the place?
All because, you're giving me a...
Breakdown Stuck on the side of the road.
Emotional over-load.
He'll seek and destroy everything that I enjoy.
But, I won't be the one he takes down.
No, I won't breakdown.

whats your theme song of 2004???

2007-02-14T22:25:00.001-06:00

This Love by Maroon 5

"I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind"

You were so great in 2004 that you make everyone a little bit sick!

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

a contraversial issue..... the border

2007-02-14T21:38:00.001-06:00

So my dad had to take a trip down to Iowa, US for some training for his work.He took all the necessary precautions, got his passport, packed very strictly to the list he was given by the airport, and went on his way.
4:30 in the morning my dad left for the airport to get on a 6:15 am flight for Minnesota.He had no trouble getting through Saskatoon airport security, other than a few standard procedures, and they made him take his shoes off, but once the plane landed in Minnesota, he was told to go wait in a holding room. There they began to treat him very rudely, saying things like, " I hate F******G terrorists, and I hate F*****G Canadians" or "GO SIT DOWN!" "DO WHAT I TELL YOU!."
This was all spoken to him by a homeland security officer, and various border guards. Mean while my dad is some 53 year old man going on a trip he didn't even want to go on just to get some training for his job, nothing about my dad sais threat... he is an old man lol.
There was another man that was held in the room with him, this poor guy was a guy from, i believe my dad said Pakistan, My dad said he was a really nice guy who "if it weren't for him" my dad would be in jail. This poor guy was getting treated worse than a dog that just attacked a baby would be treated, I mean they were calling him really racist terms, saying racist slurs and names.... just really horrible.... all this time my dad was starting to get really mad and frustrated, and just wanted to go home, he kept telling my dad to stay calm and helped him calm down, he said" if he didn't calm down they would just arrest him." He also said that every time he flew anywhere within the states, he was hauled into a room no matter if he said a thing to anyone or not, and each time they called him the same names, said the same things, made him go through the same routines, and just all around completely humiliated this poor guy just because of his name and skin colour....Please don't get me wrong I am not saying this against Americans or anything.... Americans are people.... just like me or you.
Finally like 6 or 7 hours after being hauled into that little room, they realized that my dad is no more than some confused, tired old guy who wanted to go home, so they decided to just get him out of the country and put him on a flight to Edmonton, after that it was up to him to find his way home. all this was because they found a 32 year old drug charge on his record..... 32 years old.... that's just bull but what ever.

Like i said before this is nothing against the American people, I was spent a year talking with them for my job, and they are nice people for the most part,its just the difference in the border control really surprised me, and how upon trying to enter the US he was completely humiliated, ashamed, and treated like a criminal, because 1. he had a very old small record, and two because he was from another country.

me, luke skywalker?!?! c'mon!

2007-01-24T08:38:00.000-06:00

Star Wars Horoscope for Cancer

You may whine at times, but you've developed a thick hard shell (like that of a crab).
You are strong willed and persistent - until you get what you want.
You never shy away from a fight, even when things get dangerous.
Mentally sharp, you are starting to master the elements of mind manipulation.

Star wars character you are most like: Luke Skywalker

What Is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

1000 hits! hooray...

2007-01-18T23:18:00.000-06:00

wow, 1000 people have visited his blog yet no comments... I should take the commenting privalige away and then see who misses it lol... but that might be a bit tyrant-ish.
anyway so lately i have been really busy, I have started school and really enjoy it, and kinda took on a whole new entire lifestyle change.....i mean like complete and total. this program that i am in is called a skills enhancement program, and basically what is does is takes you in class for three weeks and gives you a chance to kinda take an outside look on your own life.This was kind of a hard thing to for me because i really do not like to think about myself in a posetive manner for the most part.Over the last few weeks,I have learned so much about myself, like my learning styles, my personality type,( a very accurate test too!). We also do things like goal setting, look at decision making, money planning, wich i am pretty good at already, and just other stuff that i find very helpfull.
I have also started going to the gym on a regular basis, 5 days a week, mon.,wed.,&friday, are my cardio days, I go and do an hour of cardio, then in tuesdays and thursdays i do 40 mins of cardio and weights, and body training. along with the gym comes things like eating healthy, thats another thing we looked at in this course, is a close look at how we eat and our nutrition, and i have just really started to eat healthy, I eat three meals a day now lol. and other things like eat a lot more fruit and veggies, i like hardly eat junk food anymore. its weird because i am eating more, but i am burning much more than what i eat so in the end it all works out in the end.
also I am starting my CPR and first aid next week, and then straight after that I am going right into my GED program. so i am very happy about that.
okay well i am tired and have lots of homework to do so i will go now, i will blog more when i get the chance and it will be a nnew post thats not about myself lol, so until then stay safe and happy blogging!

kitty cat

2007-01-13T16:06:00.001-06:00

HAAHAHAHAHA its a kitty!... and it dances!!!... a real update will come soon, but until then enjoy!!

Wait a minuite that not ice cream!?!

2007-01-02T21:00:00.000-06:00

lol i thought this one was pretty funny... leave it to newzealand to have the cops drive icecram trucks....

Police in New Zealand, frustrated by a rural grapevine that tips off drunken drivers whenever checkpoints are set up, are taking to the roads in ice cream vans playing Greensleeves. The ruse was admitted recently "It is pretty easy to tell what an undercover police car looks like "We have to be sneaky to catch these people", say the coppers.

The subterfuge came to light after a parent complained that children had been upset when they approached an ice cream van to buy a cornet."They were scared because there was a big, burly policeman in the back."

2006-12-27T00:44:00.000-06:00

a new year has come and gone, and now we look boldly ahead to 2007.
2007 looks promising for me, and my family actually... it looks as if we are finally starting to pull out of this slum we have been in for a few years... my little brother is going back to school at nutana i think he will do good there, josh, got his G.E.D. and now has a job and is starting to become a lot more social than he used to be.. Tandi has gotten married and now has the starting of her married life to discover and learn about yet, and steve has beconme a big part of our family, i have kind of considered him a brother since highschool, and well now he leagally is my brotehr in-law lol.. ashley and evan, my mom, and dad, are all doing great... John is doing much better.. he really enjoyed christmas this year and was happy wich was one of the best things i saw this christmas... every one was happy for a change... genuinely happy. they are all moving forward in their own ways. As for me.. it looks promising, because I am going to be starting school and finishing it fairly soon... and I am going to be getting funding for it witch means that this time I will graduate, and along with getting my G.E.D. i will get things like my C.P.R.... and first aid, and lots and lots.. and lots of other usefull things.

if you were to ask me what I would have changed over the last year... or what i would or would not have done... I honestly can say that I can't think of anything.... except falling down a mountain...that kinda hurt lol... but hey I have now fallen down the tallest mountain in canada lol. but seriously i can't think of anything... maybe my weight but i am the way i am. well accually there is one thing i would have changed... the fact that i didnt really help anyone out this year... I kinda had a selfish year now that i am looking back on it... i mean that i was always putting myself first, and that can't be anymore... its to easy to get trapped in that way of life.. its much easier to help myself than to help some one else out i find.

my new years resolution for the upcomming year would be to not have a new years resolution...but to just let God guide me.... to take it one day at a time, and ask that he lead my day where he wants it to go. There are a few things that i would like to try and do or change this year aswell... things like be more greatful for what i have and what i am givien...I also want to start getting back into things like church and get more involved with other christains again. and i also have a secret goal I hope to achieve secretly...shhh.. no one can know lol...it will suprise you all at the end of 2007 anyway if i do it that is lol.

ok well this post is getting long but before i go i want to say that I want thank every one in my family, and friends for the AWSOME gifts and food and good times, in this past year... and that i look forward to many more this comming year....if anyone wants to see pics of my families christmas you can do so by clicking (or copy/paste) the following link just don't mind the OBESE ones of me...lol. And I alos want to hear about your christmas's how they went any really cool gifts thinsg like that so leave a comment plz

http://photoshare.shaw.ca/view/3102946831-1167071693-70094/31029

the play was a success

2006-12-16T22:08:00.000-06:00

so the other day my moms bible study and me and a few otehr people, put on a kids play at elim church and it went really well, a little un organized, but as cute and funny as we could ask for.
The play was called "away in a manager" and it was of course the story of the birth of christ, only a bit modenized... it was very interesting to say the least... a lot of work making all those costumes, and the set kind of fell through last minuite but we improvised as best we could lol... anyway here are some pics of the kids, they were soooo cute, I love watching thier faces, and how serious they were...

a really really really long quiz that i kind of shortened

2006-12-15T10:07:00.000-06:00

Siblings:Asley, evan, tandi, josh, and cliff, and one brother-inlaw steve

Eye color:blue

What are you wearing right now? P.J.'s i slept in again lol.

Righty or lefty: Righty

Best place to go for a date:my couchwatching E.R. lol... or some place like jamaca

---- FAVORITES>
Kind of pants:> comfy

Number:5

Animal:monkeys

Drink: water of blur koolaid,

coke or pepsi: pepsi

Favorite cartoon character: stewie griffin... and marvin the martian

---------------------------------------------------------------> Have You Ever...
Given anyone a bath?Yes.

sky dived? No, but i want want to

Made yourself throw-up? No

Gone skinny dipping? haha do you really want to know...

Loved someone so much it made you cry? no

Played truth or dare? yeah

Been on a plane? yuppers

Been in a sauna? Yes. but they make my asthma bad

Swam in the ocean? yes... both oceans within two weeks accually

Fallen asleep in school? not that i know of

Ran away? yes

Broken someone's heart?i break a lot of heart *sighs* lol

Cried in school?> once... when i drove the fire truck into the wall, and the fireman yelled at me lol

Fell off your chair?> umm... who hasn't?

Saved e-mails?Yes i save all my emails... i am lazy lol

Made out with JUST a friend?> this is a dumb question... and no

Used someone?> yes, I USED TO BE LIKE THAT

Been cheated on?> yes... and the asked to be the godmother ofhis baby?!?! grrr boys...

-------------------------------------------------------------->

What is...>
Your good luck charm?don't got one... but i do have a God that looks out for me

New fav. song? anything by transsiberian orchestra

What is beside you?a water bottle, a box pf photoas and mavis sleeping on the couch

Last thing you ate?>i am ewating toast as we speak... mmmm breaky

----------------------------------------------------------------> Ever Had..>
Chicken pox:yep

Stitches: yes, lots

Do You...

Believe in love at first sight: good question

Long distance relationships: no

Like school?haven't started yet

Who was the last person you slow danced with?some kid when i was in like grade 10 lol

Who makes you smile the most? my freinds or family

Who knows you the best:God

Do you like filling these out:when i have the time

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?:glasses

Do you like yourself: i could lose a good 30lbs just to be at my right fitness level, but yes i do for the most part

Do you get along with your family? yeah, well we fight but who doesn't,

Final Questions:>

What did you do yesterday: worked my first shift at A&W, ran a kids play that went very cute, and well, and moved some furniture to my sisters

Gotten any awards?>Yescreative writting, and petry, and some others.

Good driver? i think so but i don't have a licence so i can't say

Good Singer?hahha.. if you like tone deaf lol

Have a lava lamp?>again stupid question

How many remote controls are in your house? umm i think 4 or 5

What was your last dream about:about how I lied about having a kid so i could get funding so i didnt have to work during school...lol... i even thoink about fininces while i sleep... i am wierd... and i would never do that lol

When you last showered:?yesterday morning and will do so again after this servey

Scary or Funny Movies? I am good with either as long as the scary one does not go against what i believe in

Chocolate or Vanilla?> vanilla

Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper?> Mr.pibb

Silver or Gold?>gold

Diamond, birthstone, or pearl?> diamond. (and birthstone, and pearl, please)

Sprite or 7up? blah! niether

Coffee or sweet tea?> coffee

Phone or in person?> Person

Are you oldest, middle or youngest? one of the middle ones

- Today did you...>

Talk to someone you liked:yes

Buy something:not yet, probly won't but i am going on a slay ride tonight!!

Get sick?> bit of a cold, but i can fight it off

Talked to an ex?>frick no

Miss someone?nope

----------Last person who....>

Slept in your bed?>me... but devin slept on the other side of the room if that counts, lol.

Saw/heard you cry?no one..i don't cry..haha

Went to the movies with?can't remember

Said "I Love You" my mom

Ever been in a fight with your pet?>haha no..

____ Random.....>

Do you have a crush on someone right now:Yes

What book are you reading now?harry potter, and prince caspain

Future KIDS names?domonic,

What's under your bed?>i do not want to know

Favorite Locations?anywhere in the canadian rockies, or pacific ocean

what are you most scared of right now? i might not make rent this month

do you have a job?yes.. A&W lol

Song that's stuck in your head right now?> nothing

Have you ever been on radio/TV?:> yes to both

Have you ever been in a "mosh-pit"frick yeah... i had my share of moshingdays

Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed you? Yes
_____________________________> Random...>

What color is your underwear right now?>rightnow... red i think

Whats the first things you notice about the opposite sex (visual)? the eyes

Are you too shy to ask someone out? No.
I h
Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?> butter me up baby!!! lol sorry about that

Dogs or cats? monkeys

Twisted Sister - Oh Come All Ye Faithful

2006-12-10T13:23:00.001-06:00

GRRR!...ok so i figured out why i have been having troubles posting... its because i forgot to switch everything over to blogger betta...sometimes the blonde in me just takes over lol...
but anyway...This is the video of twisted sister..."oh come all ye faithfull"...of all the bands out there, and all the comebacks,twisted sister comes along with a christmas album... and tour lol... thats all... anyway enjoy.

Blogger Beta

2006-12-04T23:13:00.000-06:00

So I am playing around and trying to learn about HTML codes and basic web design, and so far i am enjoying the new blogger beta, its much easier to play with the template, and mess around with the design. I am still not quite getting how it works, but all in due time, untill then enjoy the holiday version of the captains lounge.I will post more soon

2006-11-27T22:13:00.000-06:00

Wizzards in winter

So I am really into this band lately called " the trans siberian orchestra", They are a very good band. the guy who started it back in 1996 in I believe euroupe some where started out making rock- operas and then hoocked up with a nother musician, and formed what has now become one of the worlds most popular bands.... The transiberian orchestra. My dad, and my 15 year old brother got me completely hoocked on the band. I am certain that once you listen to one of their many beautiful rock ballads, backed by and insane orchestra you will be to.

This song is called wizzards in winter, its one of my favorite songs by them, they do an entire christmas album that is just amazing.

some one has timed their christmas light set up with this song perfectly and I love it more than anything that has ever come from MTV and it doesnt even have lyrics. This band has done some thing amazing here, because they have manage to capture the attention of every one from a teen age guy to a 52 year old man... and for that I applaud them. so enjoy the video and check out the band I gaurentee you will like it

2006-11-18T23:04:00.000-06:00

Drunk Robot Santa

HAHA!! lol these guys re routed one of those scary walmart santa things to sound drunk and swear lol.

KIDS NEEDED!!!

2006-11-14T22:41:00.000-06:00

Hey everyu one out tehre in blogger landwell the saskatoon region of blogger land anyway lol. My mom and her bible study group , and I guess me aswell are going to be hosting a childrens play on december 14th at elim tabernacle. Its going to be called away in a manger and will be a very cute fun play. The script i just read the finnished version and thought it was very cute. Its called away in the manger and its about the story of Christs birth ...in the manger...

ok the point of this post... things needed:
1.KIDS!!! we had a bit of a casting crisis and 3 main characters had to drop out of the play, so now we need 12 kids ages 4-12 who are interested in acting, singing, and creative drama.

2.we also need costumes, props, and ideas for costumes and props.

3.Prayer...that everything runs smoothly, that we have enough time and enough kids to go through with this play.and that everything goes according to Gods great plan ( after all the play is about his sons birth is it not)

4.advertising, I am going to ask that you guys if you want to anyway, spread the word of this play. its called "away in a manger" and it takes place in the chapel of elim tabernacle on december 14th. tell your freinds, family, neighbours and pets. and I am expecting you all to be there to show support these kids lol. most of the kids in this play come from the "not so priveledged" homes or areas of this city.not all of them do but all of them need to be cheered for.

Thanks,
-Faith

Too early for christmas?

2006-11-13T22:22:00.001-06:00

so today my family got togeather and set up our christmas tree at my moms place. yes its november 13th and some people say its way to early, but I say why do we have a time line that we need to celebrate the birth of our savior?
who said that we need to celebrate just in december?I think that jesus would want us to celbrate. and besides we are not the only ones in the hopliday spirit, I have seen three other trees already decorated so far, and stored are full blown into the holliday shopping frenzy. Heck even the christmas parade is on saturday (when I am not sure but I am going thats for sure! lol)I have noticed thzt this year people have just been ancy and waiting for halloween to be pover so we can get on with the hollidays.

I think that we should celebrate christmas as soon as we want to, Heck even twisted sister came out with a new album this year and the crazy thing is that its a christmas album! a twisted sister christmas... I have it and its the craziest thing you could hear lol. but my point is that I love christmas and I think that we as humans, and believers should be more open to celebrating when ever we get the chance. So that said let me be the first to say to you all ......

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A BLESSED NEW YEAR!!!

all that inspiration .... from an 8 year old girl????

2006-11-07T23:36:00.000-06:00

I was watching an epsiode of extreme makeover home edition...and yes I love that show lol... but anyway a story came on that really really caught my attention.
The story of little kassandra okvath. she is an 8 year old girl who is rapidly becoming a strong force of cancer prevention.
usually on these shows the show a family with a great need, meet the family, the family sends in this really dramatic sad video and pleads for the team to come make them a new house. Well kassandra sent in a video with her family in it, her mom, dad, and her 5 brothers and sisters, and the video started out normal, and then thewy said "ABC we DON'T want you to make over our house!" no, kassandra, wanted abc to come and help her make over the childrens ward at the hospoital she stayed at during her battle with cancer. the one thing she wanted to do most was add colour to the white walls, she said that because sometimes its the last thing some of the kids see.

all she wants to do is help other people. This little amazing girl is still in therapy for her cancer, and still is battling it, getting the treatments, and on meds, some times she can't even go outside because she might get sick, and when you are on chemo, you can't get sick thats all there is to it. So instead of being sad and giving up and doing what any of us would have done, what did she do?, She started a bead neckalce buisness, she makes these beautiful little handmade bead necklaces and sells them to raise money for cancer reaserch and to help other kids fight cancer. you can check out some of these neclaces and get a bit more of her story on her website here http://www.lovecomesfirst.com
Kassandrais something this world needs more of, and she needs all the help she can get. there are thousands of kids out there in the world battling cancer and she is doing everything an 8year old girl can to fight it, so I ask that you guys out there in the blogg worl would take a look at her website, and pray for her and her family, who now have a kick ass house, but still need prayers for health adn happyness.God bless and take care

a real update lol

2006-10-30T23:07:00.000-06:00

ok so that was a lame as post yesterday lol, I just got lazy. Ohwell what can you do.
so whats been happening with me latley? work, getting ready for work, dealing with strep throat witch has cleared up since yesterday ( thanks for the prayer courtney!!.)
I have got to stop being so dang lazy, I have worked with this daycare for three weeks now and I still havent gotten any of the requirements done, I still have to get a criminal records check done, a T.B. tests ( a rule of the daycare, I don't have it lol) and update my C.P.R. and first aid. and since tomorow is halloween, I have well a day lol. but I can do it.
And I also have to stop being so lazy and go hang out with my friends more, since I lost my job at gc and was unemployed I got into a rut and stopped hanging around with freinds and started ditching even my closest freinds like devin and melissa. whats wrong with me? I do not know... well accually I do lol I am a lazy assed northend winnipeger. But quite happy with the person God made me to be, I just need to get off my but more.
other than work and being lazy, it has gotten really cold here. if you are not in saskatoon then i guess you don't really know how cold it is, its not the tempurature but the windchill....brrr... so cold, today I couldnt take the kids outside at work because it was sooo darn cold and none of them were dressed for it.

So before I go I just want to wish you all a happy halloween, allthough because I was a loser I have nothing planned for halloween, my freinds came through for me again. We are going to go to all of our friends places and trick-or-treat, we are all WAY to old but we are doing it just for fun and just to some freinds, I am going to be a gohst lol the traditional white sheet gohst.... or maybe tomorow at the daycare the kids will inspire me to whip up something else for a costume. Then after that we are going to elim for the games night I am going to go visist a good freind of mine melissa gunther and spend some time with her. Then after that we will pile into my friends car and just go driving around looking like a bunch of idiots in costmes. lol ,
ok so If any one reads this post I NEED YOU TO COMMENT!!! and leave some costume ideas that can be wuickly made as in like 4 hours quick lol.

ok well I have to go, I should finnish cleaning and take out the trash to make my place smell pretty again i will pull out the oust fan.But before I go I have a few funny halloween pics to leave you with. so good bye, God bless and enjoy halloween(and the pics).

2006-10-18T23:36:00.000-06:00

1. Where were you 1 hour ago?
watching the best show in the world!!! LOST! cant beat that, did you know that MR. Echo is a live!?!

2. When is the last time you filled up your gas tank?
I have no gas tank to fill so never :)

3. What is the most amount of money you spent in one store?
hmmm....probly close to like $200.00 at the coke store in vegas

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
yes, a strip of different colours of paint i am using to see what colour to paint my walls

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
today!

6. Are you wearing socks right now?
yes.

7. Do you have a car worth over $5,000?
HAHA ....you wish

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
umm... on sunday we went to P.A. for the day

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
No!

10. Are you popular?
meh, I have ennough good freinds, and couldn't really care less about being popular

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
water!!

12. What was the last thing you mailed in the mail?
I have no idea....

13. Do you wash your car?
for the third time...I DO NOT HAVE A CAR! lol

14. Last fast food you ate.
chips and dip... a classic

15. Where were you last week at this time?
at work, i think

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
nope, to broke to do so.

17. What bank do you use?
should i really be posting that on blogspot, would you like my credit card numbers too? lol

18. Do you own any land?
No, not sure if i ever will

19. What do you want to be when you "grow up"?
when I grow up I want to be a...(insert career here)

20. Your dream vacation?
jamaica

21. Last boat ride you went on?
hmmm... ooh i know in a canoe with devin on a canoe tour at pike lake( lame, but it was cheap and we were board lol)untill we got horribly lost from the group and ended up at someones private farm...and then we tipped the canoe lol... good times

22. How old are your parents?
Mom: 51?? Dad:54?? no real idea

23. Are you in love?
I will never tell

24. Do you have any single friends?
yes, yes i do

25. Last play you saw?
cant remember

26. Have you been to New York?
not yet

27. What are your plans for tonight?
sleep

28. Last concert you went to?
The trues! oh and only Theory of a deadman, and the boudolin sound clash

29. Next trip you are going to take?
taking a free flight to L.A. at some point this year

30. Ever go to camp?
no

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
haha...honor roll??

32. What is your current GPA?
yes??....

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
No

34. Are you hungry?
no

37. Do you have a tan?
used to

38. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
25, but inreality we will just have to wait and see

39. Do you collect anything?
coke stuff

40. Is this quiz annoying?
no.

41. Last time you got pulled over?
riding in the back of a truck sitting on a couch with three other people, lol

42. Ever been arrested?
...

43. Been to Mexico for Spring Break?
no

44. Do you like hot sauce
hot and spicy!

45. Do you need to do laundry?
hell yes! but will I do it intime for work tomorow... most likley not!

47. How many friends do you have?
Who cares how many i have, they are good to me and I am good to them I hope, and thats all that matters

48. Are you someone's best friend?
yes

49. Are you rich?
umm...... define rich....

50. What are you thinking right this minute?
I am tired and don't really want to go to work tomorow even though i love my job. it is really hard work.

Halloween scary movie night

2006-10-10T13:31:00.000-06:00

Hi, every one, I am having a halloween movie night for anyone and every one who wants to come. Its a noght of fun, freindships, and food, and ofcsre scary movies. featuring the classics; the rocky horror picture show, frankenstien,scary movie, and some others i am sure we will find. games, and did i mention candy?

WHEN? this is going down on friday oct. 27th at 8:00p.m.
WHO? you, and freinds
WHERE? my house, just give me a shout if you are comming and i will give you the adress
WHAT TO BRING? ..... good question..haha...CANDY!!! or chips or pop, but mainlky CANDY!
WHY? do you need a reason to have fun?

so just comment on here or call me and come, because it will be fun, and who doesnt like fun honestly.

2006-10-05T00:00:00.000-06:00

Here is an interesting Photo i found, it speaks to me more than just a picture, I see a really strong message here one that we all need to see more often. Take a look at this pic what do you see?

I see a message of hope. A message of strength, simply saying, "If you step out, if you trust me, I won't let you fall. just step out to me and I won't let you go"
I dunno just a pretty cool pic

What would you do with a million bucks??

2006-09-24T22:13:00.000-06:00

I was just watching extrememake over home edition, ( yeah I know, lol, but I like it) anyway, it was the coolest episode I have seen yet. allthough those shows are corny and made to rev up your emotions, it makes me jelouse, yet happy for the families on the show. I have always wondered what it would be like for my family to recieve something like that. So I got to thinking. if I had a million dollars what exactly would I do with it. some people say that theese days $1,000,000.00 isnt a lot of money but I say hey its more then I have now.
So my question to you, (as if anyone accually reads my blogg) comment on what you would do if you had a million dollars to spend

an update

2006-09-22T16:33:00.000-06:00

Ok so I have been doing some updates to the captains lounge. My sister has shown me this crazy awsome new blog hosting site called vox. I love it. bits about ten times better than blogger. I likme blogger for the more traditional blogging but this is a very cool service my site is almost complete so come and check out the new captains lounge at come check it out play around and enjoy. granted there isnt much on their yet but alot of pics from my road trip to bc and northern alberta.

crazy I must be going

2006-08-24T15:04:00.000-06:00

So yeah I am losing my mind! lol. I dont have the internet anymore or cable and its driving me insane, allthough i was never home to use it much or really ever I am still feeling the withdral effects and its almost painful.....

in other news, i am excited because I am going on a very exciting journey in two weeks. every year my brother, sister, and a few freinds go traveling somewhere. last year it was western north america, the year before it was straight across canada. this year it was schedulled to be newyork and the north-eastern united states, but things didnt work out so well finacially, so now we are going to be going traveling northern alberta and out to the far west coast of vancouver island to china beach or juan de fuca beach. at either location we can camp right on the beach and enjoy the open ocean for the 5 days we will be there. it will be paradise.and its only going to cost us each $250.00 + spending. so its cheap, its fun, and its a really long drive in a tiny kia rio lol. but i cant wait, speaking of that does anyone happen to have a small cargo carrier that we can borrow for the trip or that they are willing to sell for this trip? if so please do let me know.

the big day!...

2006-08-14T15:39:00.000-06:00

so the wedding wnet well... I cnt belive that my baby sister is marriedand now on her honeymoon. it was a long stressfull proccess but it is done now and she is no longer a villeneuve but a pohl. congrats tandi and steve you guys are awsome! and even thoug i may have complained alot about the choice of dress i had to wear i was honored to be a brides maid tandi.
I think th funniest part of the wedding was when tandi blew out the unity candle right after lighting it lol. great simble of your future together lol. but yeah anyway it went well we got losts of pics and i got to see alot of relatives that i havent seen in a while and got to spend some time with them. there is a website of some of the photos we will be posting much more of them as we gt them but dome of them are ready for you to see if you like to.

here is the link:

http://photoshare.shaw.ca/view.php?VEID=39179_ZrMZLf1155444328bUmahq&mesg=1

also here are a few of the ones that i took during the photo shoot. they are different shots of the flower girl who was just to cute, and diferent ones of tandi kissng a statue lol

funny photos for you

2006-08-06T21:23:00.000-06:00

Here are some funny pics for you guys these are ones of my sister ashly holding a knife( hot ash real hot lol), my dad being well my dad lol, the kids I babysit being monkeys. and one of devin and he looks really funny lol.

2006-08-05T14:34:00.000-06:00

Ok Go Treadmills

this video is awsome, lol I am posting it so you all can see it these guys did this in one take and it accually worked. so go ahead... watch it ... you know you want to lol anyway....

the bridal shower

2006-07-30T19:42:00.000-06:00

So the bridal shower went well i think.... but then again I ended up having to host the entire thing so i dont really know what good a host i am, but the guests seemed to be enjoying it, and tandi had a blast. some old freinds from high school showed up, and suprised even me lol, plus only two people rsvpd but 32 showed up lol... crowded church lol. here is a pic of the very pretty bride to be lol, we plaid a game where the winners got to give the bride to be a new make over and she even had a pretty hat lol.

and here is one of the suprise guest we had lol i will pst a before and after pic of him...
before: (the guy in the background)

after: ( you can see him behind tandis head)

lol yeah a lot of the guests were pretty shocked at that one lol plus little did i know that tehre would be an 82 year old woman there, and here i am playinggames that involve a canvas stripper lmao. but we all had a blast. I made a web site for all of her guests to go and sign plus I also put all the pics from the shower on there to so you guys can go and see that if you want here is the link

http://tansbridalshower.blogspot.com

what is it??

2006-07-29T09:52:00.000-06:00

can y ou guess what this pic is if you do there is a prize.....

its hot

2006-07-26T13:56:00.000-06:00

its to hot lol

2006-07-17T16:35:00.000-06:00

lol black cofee!?!?! i am black coffee lol what about you just click the link

You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable

At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty

You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it

Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

I have a plan....

2006-07-10T13:41:00.000-06:00

lol, ok you know how I have been whinning and complaining about quitting my job at GC, well... i... I am going to do it lol. how did i come to this decision, well first off today I checked my emails (something I havent done in while) anyway i got thee emails from freinds of mine basicly saying that our freindship was on the edge of ending, i didnt realize it but i gave up my life to work at Gc, yes i like the job, well accually not the job the people at the job, but anyway I like the job the managment is great. the hours suck. there are so many to fill. I devoted my life to that job for 10 months I litterally would only take like two days off a month sometimes, because they needed people so bad, my hard work never went unpaid though.
but anyway yes i am quitting. an even though i may sound happy about doing this it scares the shit out of me, like i said thats all i have known for the last 10 months... a guaranteed paycheck every two weeks.
Why am i quitting?? well thismorning my mom called and because i was busy putting away my camping stuff and getting ready for work i rushed her off the call, and then hastily said bye, but before i did she said, I just want to talk to you.
then it hit me. i havent even said so much as how are you? or asked for the time of day to my own family in the ast few months or so... I may fight with them but i still love them, and thats when i decided to quit. i realized that i had lost touch with everyone and comming close losing to my own family. and that can't be.
so i prayed hard about it for a long time, and just before I was about to leave for work God gave me an idea... a great idea. i love god, anyway. another need at Gc is childcare. people that work there can't afford daycares alt of the time, and can't find one that works with the hours. So... naturally put two and two together and I am going to give my two weeks notice at Gc tomorow and while I am finishing up tehre I am going to tell people that i am starting babysitting specificly for Gc teleservices. one that works with the hours and is cheap... really cheap.. $25.00 a day per kid. and start with say 4 kids thats $100.00 aday, $500.00 per week, and $2500,00 per month roughly.
and the best part of this is that i love working with kids, and that it will give me a chance to begin to chase the Vision God has given me. plus if need be I can go back to Gc anytime I want to lol. anyway thats the plan, so tomorow i will go and give my two weeks notice at work and another good thing is that i still have a weeks worth of holiday pay to use up so i can even work the est of this week and go on holidays for the last week lol.

people bug me...

2006-07-05T23:43:00.000-06:00

why do some people always want to make things complicated, why cant things just always be simple lol, anyway tomorow i am headed out to the lake again only this time i wont be back until sunday night wich kinda sucks because I really wanted to go to church this week but i guess that will have to wait one more week, sorry melissa.
so I posted a while back that my sister is getting married in august. and with the wedding comming up my mom has kinda really been on the whole "you are 21 why aren't you the one getting married?" or "how come you don't bring any of your boyfreind to meet me?" i understand the mother of the bride is a big role and that tandi is younger than me, but maybe me and her have different veiws on getting married. I mean she is not even 20 yet. I say go out and have some fun while you are still young lol. i usually don't let my relationships last very long at all lol, a few months maybe. and its not that I am dumping them its that they guys i like are not really the "long term" type lol. they are fun for now, but after a while they just get boring or they turn out to be dick heads or something. I don't know, but personally i am fine with that. I am nt saying tht I don't enjoy a good strong relationship. I am just saying that I am just 21 and still like a little fun in my life. besides with my schedule i don't have time fro a real relationship anyway. i work like 13 hours aday and have a social life aswell.a girl can only do so much you know.

I am happy for my sister though, this is her dream come true, she is marrying a great guy too, he is good christian guy and a total dork. Its kinda funny because growing up every one thought that I would be the first of the Villeneuve kids to get married and start a family, hahaha, gues they were wrong. I will do that, just not right now, I work a 10.00/hr job. there is no way i can even begin to support a family off that.anyway this is my borring blog about nothing. sorry i am on hollidays and have to much time off, when that happeens I start talking about boring things lol. i am kinda curious though to hear what you guys think, I mean do you think that 19 is to young to be getting married or do you think i need to grow up a bit, stop messing around and accually do something with my life.

back from the lake and off to Edmonton...

2006-06-27T10:24:00.000-06:00

Well not yet exactly, so he lake was beautifull, I even mannaged to get a good tan in. only i fell asleep on the beach and now I have a big bad sunburn, but thats good I figure because once it peels i will have a really nice base tan for the summer. so what did i do for the weekend?? NOTHING lol, I slept, I st aound in pj's, and I went swimming, I went tanning on the beach ohh it was paradise. only problem was that i went with my brothers lol enough said. no they are good guys but cliff my little brother found me sleeping on the beach and well being 15 decided it would be fun to smack my sun burn to wake me up...hahaha... well i may be a big girl but piss me off enough and i WILL chase you down lol. yeah well there was a group of teenage girls on the beach and i through cliff into the water and dunked him and then stole his trunks lol, and put them on the beach...hahah.. it was sooo worth it. but it was fun hanging out with with my bros once and a while they are fun guys.

Then I have a full week of work, and a whole new team to train and manage, see i train all the people that get hired for sprint at GC Teleservices, i love my job but very demanding hours, only because I am the trainer or "T-Bay girl" as i am commenly called by the reps lol. see every one at Gc has nick names, its such a close work envrioment, every one is freinds there. anyway i have a full week of work then i am off to Edmonton for saturday and sunday to see how they do Canada day. its cool because our campground is right in the middle of the city, yet stll lik eyou are out in the wikderness..strange but fun.allthough fr some reason i still have a bad feeling about this Edmonton trip, but I am sure it will all go fine. just pray for the trip if you would please. Then when we get back its my 21st B-day!!! on the 3rd happy birthday me lol, but then i am back in the city on monday then work a week and headed out to the lake again only this time I am taking devin and his nephew and Austin a kid that i have pretty muched raised. then work another week, then head out to another lake for a freinds b-day, then work another week then out to the lake for my b-day bash lol. ohyeah my sisters birthday is on the 18th to lol.

speaking of devin, my best freind... he graduated!! he freakin did it. and he managed to do it in like a 2 month span it was crazy lol... CONGRATS!!!! devin I am proud of you. now you get to come back to the city and have a great future workng at GC lol. and I am your manager MWAHAHAA!!!

I am going to the lake!!

2006-06-24T12:47:00.000-06:00

Ok, so finally i will get to enjoy the summer weather a bit lol, I am going to the lake, me an entire weekend without work... strange i know, but i needed it I flipped out on a kid yesterday at work because he kept eating on the floor and not listening to me at all.anyway here are some lake photos I will wrie more when I get back

what if

2006-06-18T20:47:00.000-06:00

what if i left one day
what if i walked out my door and just kept going
what if you got in your car and just drove,
where would you end up
this world is big, so much to do and see
what if you climbed to the top of the highest mountain
or swam to the deapths of the sea
What if one night i slept under the stars
or danced all night in the rain
life is beautifull.
its a journey,
wher you that journey leads
is up to you.
there is a world out side your door
filled of beauty and wonder
so go outside and start walking
drive.
run.
the road is long but the destination is up to you
life is not always about where you go,
its how you get there that matters most.

2006-06-18T15:02:00.000-06:00

Nice Car huh

lol ok so here is the second funny video nice car relaxing music just sit back and enjoy

2006-06-18T14:56:00.000-06:00

numa numa

LOL this is the funniest numa numa song i have ever seen its also one of the cutest lol anyway enjoy, plus now that i found out how to post videos on my blogg....well lol I will be posting more and stupider ones yet to come lol

Don't quit your day job??

2006-06-16T00:51:00.000-06:00

Ok so latley I have been thinking about quiting my Job at GC teleservices. I love the job, the people are great and the pay isn't half bad either, but the hours are sooooo demanding. Its true I am not on the phones anymore but still I have given up my evenings and pretty much all of my old socail life for this job. I did it because I needed to before I started at GC I was sleeping on a pile of blankets on my aunties living room floor, and eating good old itchiban noodles. now eight months later i am making more than I need and have a really nice on bed room place with nice furniture cable and internet and a cell phone lol i'm livin' it up lol
and its not only the hours bt that place is no different from high school, same old dramatics lol. guess whos dating who, and i am sooo mad at her, and look at what she is wearing and yadda yadda yada lol. my wok day is pretty much 9 hours aday plus 2 hours travel time to get there by bus and a 20 min walk to a bus stop and then an hour wait and another hour bus ride to get home so in total about three hours of travel time on top of my 9 hour work day so its kinda crazy. but i usually go out after work, or have some people over here and just hang out and watch tv. I have to admit though the hours do get in the way of me doing some othe things that i really want to do, like graduate, or get my licence, or strarting a youth ministry, things like that. but if I quit where will I get the money to do all these things. so I have a bit of a delema here.....to quit or not to quit that is the question...I am sure I can get another job somewhere that the hours are not so demanding... maybe I can.
but for now i think I will just tough it out i mean i am goimg n holidays in two weeks so that will be nice.
to be honest i think I am to much of a chinken to quit. what i really want to do is to quit and wither go back to school and graduate or to quit and start this vision God gave me. lol but i really do love the job, haha good times talking to crazy people all day lol gotta love it

THEY LOST

2006-06-13T10:09:00.000-06:00

so what if the oilers lost 2-1 to carolina THERE IS STILL GAME 5!!!!! lol
sorry I am a big oilers fan. and even i they did lose we are still having oilers day at work tomorow

time for God

2006-06-10T23:00:00.000-06:00

fear of falling away again. thats the feeling i have today. My life is so busy latley with work and social life and stuff to do and blah!!! lol again i am finding that i am starting to fall away again from God. I wish I was able to write ou my life, I knew it was going to be an up hill battle after accepting crist and going back to being a christian. but man its like trying to climb a flat wall straight up. Bt I know that God is there to help me through any temptation and provide away out. it just gets crazy sometimes. I didnt really realize how much of a party girl I was.

its wierd because I am finding that the more I think about that missions center and stuff, the more crazy things tend to get. I am not going to give up or anything I just need to get closer to God and make hime the center of me, and my crazy life. take some time for God. if you read back in my bloggs and archives you can see where we started this missions center and had upwards of 18 kids sitting around doing a bible study. (read july 6th post)
what ever the case it looks like I have a choice to make... a very hard choice and a test of faith aswell,
so yeah anyway this is just a blogg to basicly work out some thoughts and yeah anyway happy blogging

long time no blog...

2006-06-09T09:55:00.000-06:00

so I eally have nothing imprtant to log about today... umm I am still not happy that the oilers lost to carolina with an open goal. that was kind of diapointing, but then again its not me out their on the ice with the pressure of the world watching me.
so things have been very busy for me latley good but busy I am working crazy hours again and now that there is over time available again I am going to grab that oppertunity to make some extra cash.

latley I have been listening to Fort minor Likinparks side project, very talented very good. not thier usual style but still just as talented. much stronger lyrical value. for instance thier first single "where'd you go" is all about families that the parents work pretty much all the time and its through the eyes of the ones left at home. very good tune. I don't have thier album yet but i will buy it on payday.
so i saw Xmen 3 the other day, now that was a good movie, best out of the series i think. i am going to go and see it again, I don't want to say to much about it incase many people haven't seen it yet but GO AND SEE IT!!!! lol

anyway that is my post about nothing so I have to go but will come up with something better tomorow....

WORD lol sorry....

2006-06-03T22:12:00.000-06:00

Anyway i am going to blogg today about a dream, or a passion accually, what ever anyway God has givin me this dream a few years ago and up until recently I forgot all about but I want to open up and entire ministry center for mainly youth. I have a passion to see saskatoons youth do great things for God.
I am sure that some of you know that saskatoon has a MAJOR drug problem, everyone i know is on drugs, anything from pot, shrooms and meth to E and cocaine. if you didnt realize this before then people open your feaken eyes!!! sorry to be so direct but I mean saskatoon is in an epidemic. its true. I fell away from God for a while but while I did I learned what a huge problem we do have, I looked into it and 8 out of 10 teens are on drugs, no lie, I dare you to just ask some teens if they smoke pot, or ever get high. most of them don't even consider pot a drug anymore its as common as smoking and dinking. and not only kids but a lot of adults too.What ever the case it needs to stop.

I spent most of my teenage years in saskatoon, I know wht its like to grow up here.hanging out downtown or on brodway, crashing the malls, street racing and pool halls. car shows in the whole sale parking lots. these may not seem like bad options but obviously they aren't working. it gives teenagers a bad reputaion, leads them in ways they shouldnt go but worst of all shows them a life style of sex drugs drinking and all around imorality. They are left with no where to go. parents that work late hours.kids are given keys and an allowance, with nothing to spend it on. so they spend it on things like parties and drugs, and music, video games etc.. What am I getting at ??? well In this vision, one part of the ministry is an open doors hang out. just a safe clean fun place where kids and teens can just go and hang out after school. play games listen to music, hang out. just a place that can give them the oppertunity to get off the street and a chance to get away from the drugs. I can see this thing with a skate park, a lounge, a sports area a basketball court, a game room. man just anything a teen would want only in a God based enviroment.

I have written out a more formal outline of this vision God gave me and if you would like to know more I can email you a copy. but for now all I want to focus on is openning this hang out place. a place to just go and be kids and teens again. The main focus on this part of the ministry is just to let them know there are people that care. all though entirly based on God I don't want this part of the ministry to be to "in your face preachy" lol or anything. yes it is a chistian hang out but to sort of get them off the street and in an enviorment where they would be able to listen and hear the hear the Gospel. one of my favorite sayings is "preach often, use words if nessicary" if we jump start this hang out based on Gods love and simply live out the Gospel by providing a love based enviroment where they can come, they will see Gods love through us and how w treat them, plus it gives us a chance to get to know kids one on one and work directly with their unique situation, there for opening the door to preach the gospel further.

One thing that I can see aswell and I think saskatoon needs is an alternative to friday nights, I was kinda thinking like a christian dance club, or music center. get a DJ. the kids bands could practice there. and play aswell. Mike love said once that music is the most powerfull medium in reaching youth. and I agree teens are passionate, and one way they express them selves is though music. so lets give thjem a place they can do that, mean while this will all be happenening to spread the love of God and get the kids off the streets.

I obviously don't know anything about starting a ministry or where to begin, or well anything. but I do know that if nothing gets done now soon it might be to late. anyway I know that through God all things are possible, so please guys I ask that you pray about this vision God gave me and if you have any advice for me please do post it lol. anyway its long i know but read it and pray about it please

style change.......

2006-05-29T01:33:00.000-06:00

So I have to post this before i go to bed nd lose my energy and train of thought. I got back about 10 minuites ago from YC-AB and yeah I realize I am 20 and still attened it lol. But anyway I just got back from YC. and it was increadible as usual, awsome bands and speakers allthough this year Hillsong didnt do the worship but tree 6 did an asome job. hey really know how to get a crowd going. This year was packed insanly packed rumors re that tehre were over 21,000 people there this year it was retarted, just shoulder to shoulder everywhere in there. it was awsome.
I also saw thousand foot krutch not once but twice in one weekend how cool is that I meas seriously!!! I love TFK, so muc that i waited an hour and a half in line for there autographs.

I also found that the news boys put on the best show ever again, and totally blew the crowd away.especially when they did thier encore...wow what a show what a way to end YC. it still sucks that it had to end but all good things must come to an end sooner or later I guess lol. I am just not prepared for the let down yet to come.. I wish I could go back.
I also managed to finally get skillets new CD. Devin and melissa went aswell and I think they had a blast I am not sure why they wouldnt have it was increadible.

as I am sure you can tell by my previous posts on my blogg here I havent eally been doing the christian walk for about a year and a half now., instead I was fighting with my famiy, going out getting drunk, smoking on occasion, partying,dating random guys being a patholical flirt lol. and pretty much anything else you can think of. there were times when I would drink just to see how much I could drink before I wouldnt be able to handle anymore, or how I could out party anyone. atfirst I drank to get rid of the stress in my life but now I just drink on a regular basis.and party every night with another guy. I am working a dead end job with no point in life, no reason I just exist.
That was how my life was until ohh I'd say about 45 mins ago lol. I had gone to this weekend thinking that oh awsome a weekend of music and fun in edmonton, no work for three days and I get to hang out with devin and melissa. well never did I realize that this weekend would cause me to become alive again I guess yoou could say. the whole weekend we heard about God had it spoken into our lives and we sang songs and yadda yadda yadda. but one thing that miles Mcpherson said that made me realize that I was headed down the wrong road and quickly to lol. He was talking about how he was at a party and these guys were arguing oh well I can drink more than you and how he pulled ot a six-pac , and downed it. immidiatley i took the challange and, and devin laughed at me, thats when I reallized that I was at a youth confrence in edmonn one that I have gone to many times before but never in this state it use to be to hear about new ways to share the Gospel. this time I was tehre but was mocking it. when I realized what I was doing, lets just say the entire weekend ended up being one big spiritual war. part of me wanted to run out of rexal screming and saying "what the hell are you here for you don't believe this crap do you??" and the other half wanted to stay, whenever a worship song I reconized came on I woul sing along and a part of me wanted that more than anything in the whole worl including alcohol. it was wierd,I mean I was like a rebeliouse teenager or something.

I faught this fight all weekend ALL weekend, infac untilll I was on the bus back home and just getting back in saskatoon again and I got tired of it and pretty much broke down and said "God if you want me to go pray with someone get me out of this seat!" lol well here is some advice haha, Don"t challange God, YOU WILL LOOSE. so before I knew it I was up at the front of the bus explaining how I wanted to give everything back to God again.... it was so wierd. as soon as I started praying it was like I woke up from this really deep sleep or something it was just strange. and awsome to I couldnt stop smilling and I still can't lolé thanks to Krystal, Pastor brian and chris, for praying with me because I didnt know what was happening lol.
Allthough I may have come back to God i know that its only half the battle Imean I stll have life to face, yc is a safe zone, its all about God, but out in the real world I have a hardcore party girl reputation. that i managed to create in the last year. and now I have to face that giant. the monster that I let satan create in my life. and now i have the oppertunity to change that at work in life and with my friends. Its going to be an uphill battle and I know that much but I also know that I have God and a great church to back me up. YC may be over but my life is just beggining. and I am going to ask that you guys who ever reads this loooong blog pay for me becaus I will need any prayers you can give and not just for m but for Devin ad melissa too who both have struggless in their own lives.
but I am going to end this blog now by saying praise God in heavan and in earth, he is worthy of our praise., lol sorry I am still kinda on this weird high thing lol, but God bless and good night

strange but i like it

2006-05-16T10:16:00.000-06:00

lol I thought these photos awsome so I put them on my blog there re a few different pics here....I donèt know which one i like more

Quotes of the day....and oher random saying

2006-04-25T10:07:00.000-06:00

Hey all, here are some quotes that I came across the other day I thought they were pretty neat, some of them fairly funny lol anyway here are the quotes:

Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go." - TS Elliot

"The hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn." - david russell

Cherish your vision and your dreams as they are the children of your soul; the blueprints of your ultimate achievements.
-Napoleon hill

Life doesn't make any sense, and we all pretend it does. Comedy's job is to point out that it doesn't make sense, and that it doesn't make much difference anyway. - Eric idle

Chocolate, men, coffee - some things are better rich - anonymous woman

The greatest good you can do for another is not just share your riches, but to reveal to him his own.- Benjamin disrealie

All I can say about life is, Oh God, enjoy it! - anonymous

Courtney if you read this I found this on your blog and thought it was pretty cool thing to quote hope you donèt mind:

-There are no short cuts to destiny, we just have to take it one step at a time.
- C J Bowman

anyway there are some quotes and a fun quiz for todays posts, now I have to go get ready for work, have a good one

The harry potter quiz... you should take it

2006-04-25T10:00:00.000-06:00

Hey all look i finally updated my blogg lol, anyway I was browsing through randoms blogs today and I found this quiz, its a fun litte quiz that I really think you should all take and thn tell me your results by leaving comments lol anyway here is the quiz... I scored as Harry Potter...

THe harry Potter quiz, just copy and paste in the go to bar.

http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=2338

anonymous

2006-04-09T21:40:00.000-06:00

fear nocked at the door, faith answered, fear was no where to be found...

I love bubble wrap....

2006-03-11T22:08:00.000-06:00

Anyway on another note, I just filled my taxes and should recieve a return of over $500.00 witch I am very happy about because now i can afford YC-AB, i just need to be able to go with some one now lol, I want to take devin aswell but he doesnt know that yet, but i guess he will find out after I post this won't he... I can think of a few other ideas aswell, like maybe a car or a new couch set...some new clothes, Ideas people, I need ideas,if you have any idea of what I should do then pleaze do tell me lol. I just got a brand new computer, and tv, as well as an MP3 player and a whole wardrobe of new clothes, I don't think I need anything accually. I dont have any outstanding bills or anything, I pay them all regulary now lol... strange feeling having access money, considering that just a few months back I couldnt afford a coffee, let alone rent and food, lol and I accually have a bed now, and not only a bed but a king sized rediculously huge bed, that I have no sheets for yet lol...hey thats it sheets... I need sheets lol.

so yeah anyway comment on my blogg again people I know its been a while but lets get those comments going again...ok??...

i will end this post with a question.. if you had to choose would you rather? date a movie star who is loaded but a total snob, or a homless person who is broke but freindly?

under construction yet again...

2006-03-08T02:30:00.000-06:00

I told you guysI was updating the captains lounge.. this isnt a final look, its just temporary lol......

well ok so its been a while....

2006-03-08T01:21:00.000-06:00

Woah november!!! what the fuck was I thinking when I stopped blogging...tsk tsk ohwell,
So I am sore all over right now my everything hurts. I just got back from one of the best concerts I ahve ever gone to believe it or not. you wouldnt think that hedley would have a bigmoshpit but man it was an intense one, I fell under it and that was pain lol... lots of feet stamping on me. they really know how to get a crowd going thats for sure, Jacob hoggard was wearing this strange to say the least outfit, of black pants, a tank to that clearly didnt fit, and underwear over top his pants, I was kinda disapointed that he didn't throw the under wear in the crowd at the end lol, I am such a fucking freak i even yelled out "I WANT YOU UNDER WEAR!!!!" but they couldnt hear me i guess, lol and when they played my favorite song off the album, johnny falls, I flipped lol I love that song... what a night and to think I called in sick to see the show lol...plus i got to see some ass, lol yeah jacob hoggards ass...I also got and autographed poster and cd. i was really pissed off at the fact that MXPX wasnt doing autograpghs, I mean like c'mon that just sucks... but they were probly one of the only warm up bands i have seen get an encore call.

so what else have I been upto besides beeing a total creep and wanting some poor guys under wear? lol, work wok work work and get this work!... I work all the time lol. I have a good job, the pay is good the people their are great but the hours are very demanding, I work sometimes 14 hours a day, I don't hve to but because we have so many hours to fill they are basicly begging us to do over time. but I get to talk to people all day and take thier money, lol like the other day, I had this poor old lady call in to se why her phone was off, and i made her pay what ever she could to get service turned back on, she tried $2.00 on her debit card and it didnt go through so i tried $1.50 and it went through lol... I am such a bad person lol... fuck I am tired, and sore, I should go to bed seeings how its like 2 am and suprise I have to work tomorow lol, and see if i get fired for skipping work fo a concert lol. anyway i will start making daily posts again, i forgot how relaxing writting is even if it is about nothing lol
ok well expect another post tomorow, perhaps something intelagent... well ok something that has some form of intellagence, well expec a post anyways lol

a fun thing to do... just copy and paste on your blogg, and fill it out with your

2005-11-03T00:17:00.000-06:00

Just copy and paste this on your blogg, and fill it out with your own answers.
A- Age of your first kiss: 9
B- Band you are listening to right now: blink 182
C- Crush: right now...you'll never know...
D- Drink you drank last: umm water
E- Easiest person to talk to: you?
F- Favorite ice cream: choclate chip cookie dough
G- Gummy worms or gummy bears: gummie frogs lol
H- Height: 5'4" if yo must know
I- Instruments: Guitar, key board, piano, and recorder
J- Jelly Flavor: orange
K- Kids: none
L- Longest car/bus ride: umm 10,000 K traveling western north america
M- Major issue: my wallet got stolen today and i want it back now!
N- Nicknames: captain fantastic..don't ask lol
O- One wish: to get my wallet back?
P- Phobia: drowning i guess
Q- Quote: I post there for I blog
R- Reasons to smile: it snowed today
S- Shoe size: 10
T- Time you woke up today: 9:30
U- Unknown fact about me: I really hate the colour pink
V- vegtables: broccoli..yummers
W- Worst Habit: nail bitting
X- Xmas gift you really want: A new computer or a TV
Z-Zodiac sign: Cancer

A pumpkin shortage like never before

2005-10-30T20:52:00.000-06:00

My first weekend off in two fricken weeks, and believe it or not it has been bugging me all day because I feel like I should be at work lol...I am such a weirdo....
As you can probly guess by this point I started my new job at GC teleservices, I am not a bill collector but, get this, an "account representative" thats what we have to call our selves lol. yeah, but its a good job. I sit for like 8 hours on monday and fridays 9 hours every week-evening and call sprint customers in the US and make them pay their bills. its a good-ish job, good bennifits, and great pay,but very demanding hours. including the friggen travel time my average work day is like 12 hours every monday to friday afternoon and evening.
It may not be the best hours because I have lost every form of social life that I have had. but what can ya do I mean I really needed this job lol, I am currently sleeping on couch cushions on the floor, and staying with my aunt lol. so for the next few weeks aatleast I am glad to have these hours, and another good thing is that I can get over time any time i want to so I can accually work some of my days off at time and a half witch I really can use.

Any way enough about money and work, and more about halloween....its funny becaue I hadnt really planned on being able to do anything for halloween due to work, but today my dad called and asked me if I wanted to go get a pumkin to carve, so I said what the hell why not, aand we must have gone to every friggen store in the city and not a single one was found, we not only went to stores but to the robbertson farm and they had a sign on the gate that said "sorry but were out of pumpkins"... a pumpkin farm was out of pumpkins!! i thought it was kinda funny. thats like the berry barn being out of berries or something. but yeah anyway we didnt get a pumpkin, but we did order pizza instead lol. but thats ok becausewe can wear costums to work tomorow, and our bosses are going to give us candy apperently.

On the topic of halloween I might aswell bring up the million year old debate, is halloween right for christians to celebrate, I mean on one hand I think it is a harmless holliday tradition for families, but in the other if you look at the hystory of the day you will see the gothic practices that went on.... I dunno, My oppinion is that it is harmless to go out and trick or treat or go get dressed up in costume and go have a party, no harm done, but if you start to participate in the whole trying to scare or be scared, demons, and vampires, part of it then your pushing the limits. Thats just my oppinion leave some comments and tell me what you think of the candy holliday.

Last night I watch harry potter for the first time, in all the years of harry potter I have never seen or read any of the harry potter series. I wanted to see what all the fuss was about, why people are so against it and why some people absolutly love it, I know some people who won't even touch or watch lord of the rings or harry potter because of the witch craft and wizzardy, witch to a digree I agree with, but for the most part I think its completely harmless, I mean its not like after watching harry potter I am going to go and practice spells or anything lol. I did enjoy it though, thought it was quite a cute and funny movie, lol I watched the chamber of secrets last night, kinda dumb considering I havent seen the first one yet, but al in good time. woah this is becoming a long post. so I think I will end it now by saying Happy halloween every one, now go get me some candy!!lol.
P.s. I bet you $5 it will snow tomorow evening.

meh....

2005-10-25T00:45:00.000-06:00

Too tired to post...interesting post comming soon.

OK kids its time for the picture caption game!!!!!

2005-10-17T09:52:00.000-06:00

Ok so here is what ya do, when you see a picture, just tell me what you think is happening in the picture, what they are saying why the are doing what they are doing, yadda, yadda, yadda. The best caption wins!!!

"if your happy and you know it clap you hands!"

2005-10-17T09:47:00.000-06:00

wow lol she is scary...woner what she is thinking

2005-10-17T09:45:00.000-06:00

i like this one

2005-10-17T09:35:00.000-06:00

I can think of a few cations for this one lol.

HELLO?!?! can you speak up a bit?!? hello??

2005-10-11T12:20:00.000-06:00

Ok we will throw this one in on the caption game lol so much can be said about this pic

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I quit!!!

2005-10-08T21:26:00.000-06:00

I quit school. I quit living off of assistance. I don't really care what any one has to say about it. I can't stand being broke and out of food and sleeping on the floor anymore. I hate it and its over. I am thankful for what I get from assistance but a person just can't live of of $400 amonth. It's impossible. I am done with this living from paycheck to paycheck bullshit. I need a fucking Job.

I really wanted to finnish school this year,but again it just isnt going to happen. it will have to wait. besides I am taking correspondance and online courses starting in January so its not that big of a deal.

Back from paradise

2005-09-28T22:05:00.000-06:00

So yeah as the tittles lets on, I am back at home now......and I am haveing a major MAJOR travel withdrall and let down. I am just so bored and now very very spoiled. I am having a lot of trouble re-adjusting to regular life after my trip, but I will get back into the swing of things soon. how did my trip go you might be asking?? well it was increadible, best trip I have ever been on, one of the longest to.
We rented a van, a 2006 dodge uplander, not the van we reserved but what ever. we soon ended up putting 10,000 k, on that poor van. I didn't realize we had travelled that much untill I was driving and I saw ythe milage...crazy. Accually its not that crazy because we went from here to Edmonton,Jasper,Hinton,Kamloops,Vancouver,Seattle,Portland,Sanfransisco,Castaic, L.A.,Vegas,L.A. again (day trip lol), Primm,Vegas, Yermo nevada, (scariest place on earth!!),Saltlake city, Butte, Helena, Swiftcurrent, and then home, lol that really is a big list .
We had some pretty interesting times, and saw some crazy things to, sometimes even scary. One of the scary things we saw was a plane crash landing, I am sure some of you heard about it on the news, but at the time we were swimming at beautiful Santamonica beach, white sand, pomtrees, anyway I saw this plane flying really low and really wierd, and every one was like, " ITS GONNA CRASH!!!!" then all of a sudden it dumps its fuel, it was still a ways away and fairly high but it was really scary sight, plus at the time the tide was comming in and My sisters fiance didnt want to come out of the water, he didnt understand about tide and undercurrents or anything, but he got caught in one and got pulled under when he came up he was choking alot and threw up like five times in one evening. it tuirns out that he got sick from a combination of to much salt water, and jet engine fuel that he had digested lol. we are just really lucky that we decided to get helth insurance for the trip. poor stupid steve, maybe he should listen next time, and you know get out of the water if he sees a plain about to crash. Lukily the plain made it safley to LAX airport.

Some other crazy things we saw were a semi truckthat had completly flipped over, it was foggy and in the mountains and a deer ahd darted infront of the truck causing the driver to hit the brakes and he lost controll, thankfully no one was hurt, just really shooken up. Also in B.C. there was this phsyco semi driver who for some reason no joke wanted to kill us, he started tailing us and then out of nowhere he just sped up and came litterally within two feet of our bumper, My brother saw him tailing us and was trying to get away safley, but we were run off the highway when he sped up, once he passed us, he slowed down until we were beside him again and he would get behind us then try it again, he did this for a while, until he was forced into another lane where he pissed off other drivers until he was finally pulled over by a cop...stupid moron, tried to kill us.

We had tonnes of fun on the trip, I guess six flags would be one of the major highlights.it was increadible, I have beenthere before but this times was better because there were like no lines!, maybe 10 people in each line, but for rides like the goliath, The worlds largest roller coaster,a ride that you would usually wait up to 2 hours inline for, we got to ride not once but twice in a row, we didnt even have to get off. we probly shouldnt have gone twice in a row, becaus I had such a headache afterwards from the amount of G-force comming straight at you lol. its almost like starpping your self to a semi, we go at 85 miles an hour, roughy 140 k an hour insane! plus the ride is designed so that you dont have a harnes to hole you in, but a lap bar, that is very safe, but makes you feel like you are falling out of your seat, I don't know how they designed it like that, but it is awsome. My brother snuck his camera on with him and got a video of us on it, its mostly him, but you still get the picture.
Another ride was Superman the escape, where you sit in a car strapped in very securly, and you go straight up to 355ft. and then free fall that, on your back. I swear you have to be near suicidal to go on that lol, but I loved all four seconds of that ride lol. I also got one very bad sun burn on my back lol, its peeling right now. and it hurts. I alos baught the koolest hoodie, its got all the loonie-toons ridding the goliath roller coaster, and its got flames in the back ground..its awsome.

I am spoiled now because we ate at really nice retraunts the whole time, there was a time when one night we had applebee's, most increadible food i have ever had, and then the next night we ate at olive garden where for some reasonthe head chef, came out to serve us and to make our meals, it was great. we had also ate at this canadian themed restraund at six flags, It was awsome because in the store it was everything moose beaver and plaid, and it was always winter, lol, it was called Moose lodge, and i dunno it wasnt exactly canadian to say the least. but the food was great. I was so used to waking up and going out for a nice pancake breakfeast where the waitress brings coffee to you and she is always smilling with a fresh pot...stupid reality, I am going to hire me a waitress to bring me a fresh pot of coffee and pancakes every morning lol. i think the only junk food we accually had was at carl's jr. In good old primm nevada, the strangest place on earth lol. The entire town consists of on one side of th highway is a big hotel and shopping mall, and on the other you have the gas station, hotel, carls Jr, and the best buffet in the world. and the greatest part about primm is that there is a sky train thingy that takes you from one side of the highway to the other...thats its only purpose lol. strange place indeed.
Anyway this blogg is getting stupidly long, but all i have eft to talk about is the coke store..... I bought myself a coke hoodie, Coke Nalgene bottle, that says coca-cola word las vegas. its the coolest thing ever made. and I bout some plates and cups, and some other stuff. but i was soooo dissapointed when I got there and the coke elevator was broken!! I couldnt go on it : ( it was so sad. but I did get to ride the M&M's world elevator plus see how they are made, and watcha free M*M's 3d movie, wich was really cool. while I was down there I got to see the dream center, really cool place,. and while wewere in the area, I caught my sisters fiance checking out a "woman" lol when I informed him that the "woman" he was checking out was accually a man dressing like a female hooker, he went redder than i have ever seen a human go lol it was so funny.

Oh there is so much more I could write, lol I could litterally go on for hours, but I won't. I am going to be posting pictures and links to some great videos as soon as i get the camera working again, but until then unless you want to know more about my trip just ask lol, because I know you really really really want to know.
Ok well I am off so later dayz

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Coffee anyone?

2005-09-16T02:12:00.000-06:00

Tonight i am going to post all about coffee, I love coffee, its a great drink, and despite what the non coffee drinkers say, it IS good for you, its an essential to the average persons day. there are many types of coffee ie; Columbian, Mexian, brazillian, arabian, etc, and thats just the basic kinds not including all the mordern coffee drinks such as latte's and frappe's and yadda yaddaa yadda.
I don't get why some people are so against coffee. It can be a opening of a new frendship, or the base of a long term relationship. There are many things to consider when thinking about having a coffee, such as; what kind do you want, how much cream and sugar if any, where will you get your coffee, what size do you want, do you want de-caff, half-caff, or regular, there is also the price to be concidered, along with these questions comes the questions; who am I going to coffee with, I am going out for coffe or just grabbing a cup of joe on the go.
Like tonight for instance, I had arranged togo for coffee witha friend of mine, Melissa egde, and well it ended up being more of a cofee party i guess you could say, because i was abit late ( I know big surprise lol) but when i got there Mel was talking to a few other people and then I got to talking with them, and eventualy one of the guys ended up at our table, and we talked for a while, about lots of things, like coffee, and jokes, and traveling, and school, and drinking and driving etc. But I soon noticed this other guy who was sitting alone slowly moving table by table closer to ours, and soon enough he was at the table next to us lol, so I asked him if he would like to join us and he sais " sure I would, I couldn't help but over hear your conversation and wanted to come and join you but didnt want you guys tothink I was wierd or anything."
Well we all talked and got to know each other a bit, exchanged phone numbers and stufff, and then before we had noticed we had kind of combined with another table of people....interesting evening to say the least, but the point of all this is that over a $1.00 cup of coffee I managed to meet a lot of new people, and maybe even some more friendships lol.

I guess the real point of this post is that its 2 am and I want a coffee, but wont let myself have one because i will be up all night if i do. well thats its for this completley usless blogg of temptation!! lol...I want a coffee!!!!

Well I am Leaving tomorow so I won't be able to really update my blogg or check my emails or anything, I am going for two weeks. but when I get back I will let you all know how my trip went because I sure you guys will be just dying to know right?? oh and please pray that we have a safe trip and all goes well, and everything, if youwant that would be great thanks

The captains lounge is under construction

2005-09-15T00:26:00.000-06:00

My blogg looks kool now!! I am happy, I am just leaning how to use magical things like html and other computer junk so be patient, but its comming, lol not like any of you are dying to read my blogg anyway. ok well, I still have lot to do so I should get doing it. But I will come up with some better postage later.

My sister is getting married!!!!

2005-09-12T21:39:00.000-06:00

I just found out that my little sister Tandi, got engaged!...I saw it comming but stil its a schocker lol.
its kinda sweet how it happened, It was their third aniversery and Stephen pohl ( I am sure some of you know him) took her out to her favorite reseraunt, for supper and she got her favorite meal and he got his.and for desert they had fortune cookies, home made ones, and when tandi cracked hers open she found a white gold ring with a big 10k diamond ontop, along with 4 other smaller diamonds, along with the message "will you marry me?"
lol well tandi didnt know exactly what to say, she looked around and saw every one staring at them because she screamed when she saw the ring and just said " I have to g outside" and then went oustide lol, after like 10 minuites steve went and found her and she said " yes!!" . so now my sister is to become Tandi Pohl...Yes I am aware of her initails...TP lol. so anyway thats the big news of the week in my world.

School is going good, I am still missing to many classes in my opinion, I am just happy that I am not the oldest student at Walter murray,there is a guy who is 21, and a 22 year old girl from egypt, she is really cool. I am accually doing my homeowrk this year, and things are going good, lets just see if it keeps going though lol. I am going to be graduating in may...I will finally be done, and get that stupid deploma! lol.

Mmmm I am eating maple walnut ice-cream as I type lol, its yummy.....I am leaving for LA on saturday... and I can't friggen wait, every one around here is sick of me talking about it lol, but while you guys are getting retarted weather and snow temperatures, I will be suntanning on the beach in santamonica, or a simmilar beach, but what ever the case i will be livin it up in the super 8 motels in LA , lol...yeah more like livin it up in the cockroach motel, haha but I will have a lot of fun, I just can't believe we are leaving on saturday...thats nuts! i will also be going to vegas and yes I wil ride the coca-cola elevator like 7 times with a big retarded grin on my face... I love coke stuff incase you havent noticed, I collect anything coke lol. so riding the coke elevator will be a dream come true for me. I am also going to six flags.... crap I am doing it again, going on and on about my trip lol sorry.

Also Happy birthday to kalie Hall...... sorry I couldn't make it to your party, hope it was a blast! but anyway this post is stupid and random lol sorry I swear I will come up with something better next time. I am not in a blogging mood i guess, lol ohwell catch y'all later

Ps. here is a band you guys should really check out...great stuff, amazing vocals anyway the band is night wish,check out the site at www.nightwish.com

hey ppls time for some odd but random poetry

2005-09-06T23:57:00.000-06:00

So yes its peotry time here at the captains lounge. Today I am going to be posting three poems for you to read. some of them are rather dark, but sometimes dark is beautiful. well here are the poems. two are by me and the last one is by my good friend devin who has a blogg himself, you should check out if you like mine, its http://thehouseoflostsouls.blogspot.com

This is called "stop" I worte it it relates to teenage suicide. I wrote it because it was brought to my attention recently that more canadian teens die of suicide then any other cause. and that is insane. It has to stop.

Stop,

Breathe,

Realize what you are about to do

Is this what you want?

Is it really a way out?

Or is it just another lie

Better think twice

It could be a trick,

Another scheme

Be watchful for his tricks

For he is a liar,

He will use all that he has to bring you down

Spit in your face and laugh at you

Are you sure you want this?

Be mindful of our options,

Admit your fears and seek help

For another loves you,

And wants you to know

That what you are going through is a trick

A scheme to wreck you, and make you suffer even more

Do not be fooled,

For the end you seek is a lie

It is not an end at all,

Merely a gateway to more pain.

This one is another one that I wrote, i was bored and sitting at devins place so I wrote it.

It’s haunting,

This feeling that wont go away,

This presence that over takes my mind

Like a rope around my neck,

It’s choking the life from me.

So I sit and watch the world pass me by

Watch my life slowly slip from my grasp

I try to wake up from this never-ending dream

A dream that haunts my every thought

And consumes my soul

So I wait here unable to awake

Not sure what I am waiting for

But yet I wait,

For it is all that I can do,

Wait until it’s over,

Until I am able to breath

Until I can see a hope,

Although I do not see hope in sight

So I continue to wait,

Awake in this never-ending dream.

And this last one is Devins poem, he really is a great writter, I just wish he could see his potential sometimes...and realize that ERIC LOVES HIM!!!!!!!!!MWAHAHAAHAHA! oh yea and devin...see ya at church on sunday hey, lol. anyway here is his poem. Its called; I can make it by Devin Custer.

You said I would never make it or even come close

But look at me now

I became everything that you said that I could never become

It took a lot of sacrifices and hard work

And now you wish you were me

You never thought that all my dreams would come true

You should have known.

Known that I would never give up until I made it

But you always discouraged me

Well I guess you were wrong about that

So know you try to apologize to me

But I hope that you see…

See that I will never forgive you

But I will thank you

Thank you for strength that you have given me

For all that you did to me was an encouragement

An encouragement to go for my dreams

To prove to you that I could make it without you.

School=Money=Stress=My Life.

2005-08-31T12:48:00.000-06:00

I like that tittle lol.so self explanitory.but what ever, I dont care anymore, lol.
So much on my mind I think I will blogg it out, wich school should I go to, should I try again at school, should I give up on school and get a better job, can I get a better job with out a grade 12, should I move out of the province and try some where else, should I stay here and work things out.grrr so freakin much to decide, and then there is the whole, if I try school again, what if I fail at it, wich is probly what will happen because I suck or something. and also if I go to school, where am I going to get rent money and money for all the good things like food and bills, I really hate money. Accually its not money I hate, its human nature towards money. i dnot know, and franklly i dont care anymore. so I guess thats it for todays post, I promise to come up with something better soon.

Ok ok I will tell you the answers.....

2005-08-25T21:52:00.000-06:00

I am kinda suprised at the movie game, because no one got #3, I thought that that would be a really easy movie to get, maybe I am just crazy though, and the music one I kinda figured not many people would get them,so now I will tell you the answers.

MOVIE QUOTES:
#1 Coach carter
#2 The princess bride
#3 The increadibles
#4 Feris bullers day off
#5 The gladiator

MUSIC QOUTES:
#1 Redemption; Jonny cash
#2 ok... I forget who #2 is lol
#3 Time of your life; greenday
#4 Rest; skillet
#5 Come together; the beetles

well that was fun. and plus I won a really cool prize today and I am happy about that accept now I can't find my friggen cell phone..... grrr that angers me, ohwell I have till thursday anyway.
well I guess thats it for today, I cant think of anything worth blogging about, well i can accually, but would honestly rather not blogg about it lol, so I will just leave you with this, when God shuts a door he opens a window.......so we have something to jump out of!! lol

I won again!

2005-08-23T23:19:00.000-06:00

I won another poetry contest, this time the topic was depression. hopefully if all goes well this one is going to be published in the "chicken soup for the sould on tough stuff" book serious **crosses fingers**

Its called "cold awakening"

I scream, I yell until my throat is raw,
but no words escape my lips
I cry, I weep,as my soul bleeds
but yet not a single tear falls
Can I escape this,
will I ever feel the warm of the sun again
breath the fresh spring air one last time
Perhaps not
destined to live a life of sorrow and pain
My eyes burn as I try to see through the smoke and haze
try to see past the night
But I see no day
only dust and ashes of the past
I try to sleep, half believing a lie
a lie that says tomorow is a brighter day
but I know the truth
as I close my tired eyes,
preparing for tomorow,
just another cold awakening

Music quote fun

2005-08-15T22:03:00.000-06:00

Since the last post was a big hit, besides those spam bloggers, I think that this time I am going to have a song lyrics game. I will post 5 quotes from 5 songs, some classics, some new, some christian, some not-so christian, and the first one to get them all wins. last time no one mannaged to get all 5 of them, I am really suprised at the becauseI thought that #3 would be the easiest, when infact no one got it, I'll give you a hint adn if no one gets it this time, thenI will tell you, the hint is: its an animated family film, thats packed full of super adventures, it came out in 2004. I am pretty much giving it away with that one.

On with the game

Quote #1: And the blood gave life To the branches of the tree And the blood was the price That set the captives free And the numbers that came Through the fire and the flood Clung to the tree And were redeemed by the blood

Quote #2: The city's a flood, and our love turns to rust.We're beaten and blown by the wind, Trampled in dust.

Quote #3: So take the photographs and still frames in your mind, hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial, for what its worth it was worth all the while.

Quote #4: Still, soft quiet spoken voice That persistenly calls my voice And quickens my heart to come And I come

Quote #5: He say " I know you, you know me" One thing I can tell you is that you got to be free

Well good luck, and maybe, just maybe you guys will get them all plus the bonus movie question to.

Movie quote fun

2005-08-11T00:26:00.000-06:00

I can't believe I have to miss the freakin kiesha chante concert...ohwell I am bored now,Oh I know...
This is the "qoute" game.
I am going to post five random movie quotes. Can you guess them all, if you are the first one to get them all correct you win, I dont accually have any prizes though lol.

Quote #1: "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequite, our deepest fear is that we are powerfull beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.You playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened in shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.We were all meant to shine as children do.Its not just in some of us; it in everyone.And as we let our own light shine, we unconsiosly giver other people permission to do the same. As we are libberated from our fears, our presence auttomaticly liberates others."

Quote #2: "We are men of action, Lies do not become us."

Quote #3: "You see that? that's the way to do it. thats old school"
"Yeah, no school like the old school"
"right"

Quote #4: Life moves pretty fast, if you don't sltop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

Quote #5: What we do in life echos for eternity.

Some of those are easy some not so easy, but like I sadi if you get them right you win.....and maybe even a prize...good luck

Blogg daze

2005-08-03T21:40:00.000-06:00

I can explain why I haven't blogged in like three weeks, I don't have internet anymore, or cable. and I guess it turns out I used both a lot more than I thought I did. I depend on the internet and cable for most of my entertainment. That is why I havent updated my blog, or used msn for so long.
The move went rellativly well, and I got a bonus from my boss at work,wich made things easier to pay for. He is such a nice boss, sometimes he is a little creepy but hey thats what you get for working at a hotdog stand right?? but he gave me a $50.00 bonus just because.

I am going back up to the lake this weekend, up to candle lake again, its gonna be great, beautiful trees, fresh air, crystal clear lake, maybe even play some beach volleyball. I went to a volleyball game lastnight at the church, it was strange because I haven't been there in so long, saw some people I havent sen in forever, met some new people to, quite a few new people accually, it was cool.I also went and took a look at the service, I havent been to a service in like over 6 months, crazy. To bad I couldn't stay longer though, I was on my way out to see some freinds. I really should go back sometime, I dunno maybe later lol.

Me and my friend took her kids to the paddling pool earlier today and it was fun, I think that me, devin, and nicole had more fun then the kids though lol, I grabbed a bucketfull of water and threw it at devin and got him pretty good, but in the end, I ended up in the corner with a cup, when devin, nicole, and jeramiah (8 year old boy) all had buckets and drenched me good. lol I desrved it though I mean devin had jeans and a hooddie on when I got him. But the lifegaurds were laughing the whole time, it was friggen funny.I am not saying I didnt loose, because I lost horribly, all I am saying is that I went out with diggnaty, no wait thats not the word...I mean I went down looking like an ass lol, I lost so bad. but I will get you nicole..and devin...I will get you when you least expect it MWAHAHAHAHA!

Well my brother wants his computer back now so I guess I should get off,or I could stay on and bugg him, see how long it takes for him to get mad, lol,But because I am much nicer than that and I am his respectable ig sister I will get off and let him have it.Talk to you all later, just keep in mind that I don't have the internet and can't post all that often.
This is captain fantastic signing off

2005-07-23T23:04:00.000-06:00

wow look lol its the music machine!!!

Dashboard confessionals......good band, by the way this ppost has absolutly nothing to do with the name

2005-07-23T22:18:00.000-06:00

T -4 days till I move, I think.I found out why I had pneumonia,and why every one in my building is getting sick continually. Apperantly, we have sick building syndrome. witch means that there is a chemical, or biohazzardous presence in the walls, and floor, making every one sick. In our case it is toxic black mold, and the landlord new but didn't bother to tell anyone, he just let us all get sick. But now that some one in the building was hospitalized from it, with pneumonia aswell, the health department made the landlord give all the tenants an opption to leave with out giving notice, or to stay despite the health risks involved. Hahaha, well I think there is only like two people staying in the buliding out of 24 suites, every one else is moving at the end of the month, including me.
I just cant stand being sick anymore, I have lived here for almost a year now, and now I know why, I have been so allergic and sick all the time. stupid landlord....but ohwell I am moving into a suite with a fire place and a dishwasher...better than anything this building offered me.

on another topic, Shawn desman is coming again, and yes I AM going to go see him, its only $10 and I like his music, not his hair, but his music, and he's not that bad either.but I am going with nicole, and mavis, and corey, and craig...going to be some good times. only problem is that its going to be filled with the people from avril lavigne, a bunch of screaming preppy girls, trying to sneak into the bar to see shawn desman....like omg!!!!.
well this is a hort post today because I cant think of anything good to say other than that witch I have posted. so I will leave you with a verse from a good old classic movie some one reminded me of today...thats right you guessed it, "the music machine"...timeless.

WHat a pointless post...maybe I will come up with something later, but I doutb it, considering I am going out all night, lol !! ohyeah baby, paralyzers here I come!.

I'm the manager now.

2005-07-15T22:40:00.000-06:00

Yes the rumors are true, its been recently decided that at one of my current jobs, I am being premoted to manager. what exactly does this promotion entitle me to?, well an extra $1.50/hour, free food, and drinks, and i get alot more hours, plus I can put manager on my resume. what job did I get premoted to manager in...well...the hotdog stand...thats right!, lol I am a hotdog stand manager!!... I feel so ..so...proud to be given this oppertunity, yeah right lol I am the lowest manger of all managers lol. but I am the manager. and I get paid like $8.50/hr to do so.
I will make enough for the trip after all!!!, i cant wait it will be fun.

So today when me and my brothers were driving down preston, this lady in a van just blows through a stop sign and we didn't have the time to stop and we crashed right into her, hitting her drivers side door and front end. and completley totalling ouer car, amazingly no one was hurt bad, my little brothers neck is sore, and stiff. I have a cut on my leg, and my back, neck and shoulder where the seatbelt was is begining to hurt, I dont think its anything serious but it sure does hurt. the one who got it the worst was my brothers car, we hit so hard that even though it was the front end of the passengers side, the rad,grill, bumper, headlights, and even the battery cracked, spilling battery acid all over the front end of the car and road. the lady in the van was ok, pretty shooken up but ok, her van was just totalled, the front axle snapped , and her wind-shield cracked, and the front end frame was all bent up.at first I thought she was nocked out but, she was just stunned. we made sure she was ok, alert, and awre of what had happened. scary stuff, but it could have been alot worse, I am just glad that it wasn't, and that we dont have to pay friggen SGI anything.

Oohh .. ok ok, so for those of you who know my friend nicole, and her girls, well on monday I was playing with desiray (the 12 month old) and all of a sudden she stands up and takes three steps!!!, then she fell over and cried, but she walked, she took her first steps, she was sooo cute all happy and proud, Dez your the koolest baby!

Ok well I am going to go watch tv my back is really sore, so bye for now.

The good news first.

2005-07-06T00:37:00.000-06:00

So the good news first then.
Afew posts back I had talked about some of the stuff that has been going on in and around my appt building these last few months, and about how one of the kids that hangs out around here had accepted christ. well...things have been changing, and God has been moving......alot. first off in the last say three months, the amount of kids that come here has litterally trippled. on average, every night we have about 16 to 18 kids in our two bedroom appt. and each one of them is just as eager and hungry to find Christ as the next, things have really boomed here, its amazing to sit back and watch how its all going down. Preston, the kid who had accepted christ about two weeks ago, is now a full blown, Jesus preaching christian, that kid never lets the bible leave his hand, no joke lol, he is always talking to someone about God, and the love of christ, weather he knows them or not its kinda funny in a way. but aswell as that, we have also had two girls, one who is 15, and the other just turned 17 both accept christ, one after the other, its like a chain reaction with theese kids. I am really happy to see things go this way.
we have also started a tuesday night bible study that has so far been a fairly big success, its kinda like a cell group only we discuss the real basics of christianity with these kids, who jesus is, what he did for us, why he was crucified, and that he has risen and beaten death, but along with that we create a relationship based support group for them, all of theese kids come from different backgrounds, but the majority of them are street kids, who over time have become hard hearted and the don't trust anyone, but through this bible study, we are encouraging them to learn to get along wither others, and to open up a bit. and as we talk about the bible and about life and problems, they see that they are not alone, and begin to let go of some of the fear that is holding them back, and they are able to begin to trust and just be kids again. this bible study is in no way shape or form, anything structured yet, lol we havent had the chance, all my roomate said was " ok guys starting tonight at 7(two weeks ago) me and jesus are going to be sitting down and talking about life, the bible, and anything else that might come up, who's in??" caorse every one was to cool to say that they were comming but 7:00 rolled around, and they all one by one came over to the table until there was like 14 kids cramped in the tiny kitchen lol.a funny sight to see.now that its been going for two weeks, we have about 14-16 kids that come out for it. and we have a blast to. there are still a few kids who are really resting all of this, but I know they are interested and will come around to it in Gods time, I mean hey why else would they still come around?

Now for the seond part of the post, a few prayer request;
if possible could you guys pleas pry for the following, it might seem alot, but I'd be really thankfull if you did.
1. bibles, bibles, bibles,...we dont have any for these kids, and we cant really afford them at the moment.
2. food to feed them, we have food right now, but it teenagers are hungry creatures
3. That God would continue to work in theese kids.
4. for leaders, that God would bring some or create some, guys inparticular, just because we dont really have a male christian leader type person.
5.a T.V.....strange request yeah, but its a vital part of what we are doing here, and my T.V. just died!
6. last but not least, my health, I was at the doctors today because I have been sick for almost a week, and she thinks its pneumonia (spelling??) she said that if the tests come back positive I will be in the hospital for the next three days atleast....that would suck.
I know its alot but like i said I would really apreciate it if ou could just say a quick prayer, thanks, now I am going to bed, because i feel like sh*t! lol sorry i had to say it.

2005-06-28T17:02:00.000-06:00

this is the tatto I want to get, its gonna cost me a but load of cash, but i think its worth it.

turning twenty, getting a tattoo, and going to winnipeg

2005-06-28T03:42:00.000-06:00

So wow..lol almost two weeks since I have blogged last, wonder why, ohwell.
so whats new with me? well, nothing really, I havent been doing all that much latley, a couple of parties, hanging out with friends, satying up all night, sleeping in till 11am everyday witch I am getting really sick of lol,not much has changed in the last two weeks. I went to a one year olds birthday party witch was really fun, desirea...such a little cutie, but a handful. her mom put the cake in front of her to see what she would do, and in the end she ended up with cake, from her hair, in her eyes, her ears, and all over me lol, she sure is a cute kid that one.
So three major hings are happening this weekend for me, well 4 accually.
1. I am getting a tatto ( the one in the pic above) it is going to be on my lower back with the wing going out to the sides instead of upwards like that
2. I am turning 20 on sunday...20...that means no more acting like a kid....well so I am told anyway, but hey its never stopped me before :P
3. I am doing some final planning on my trip to winnipeg. I am going to be staying in winnipeg for the summer, and some f september working with my sister, should be awsome, I need to go back home for a while anyway.
4. its Canada day...and I love big crowds, loud music and fireworks...just really hope it doesnt rain

I have absolutly nothing to blog about today lol except that witch I have said, and that its raining out, and kinda cold, but nice. just hope it clears up for the weekend, I can predict that it will rain on sunday July 3rd, lol it always rains on July 3rd, my birthday..every year, but I like rain so its ok.

on th topic of my birthday I would like to shout out a thanks to nicole, jennie,meg, and cory, for a friggen awsome wild weekend, how often does the DJ accually ask you to come on stage with the band so that they can totally seranade you with a happy 20th song.....and also when your two best friends show up at your place at midnight and tackle you until you are all ddressed up and they kidnap you and take you clubbing, and on the table, they have not 2 but 3 pitchers, and all the paralyzers you could want.... you guys are the best friends a girl could ask for. and also to steph and mel for last night, the cake, and the total chick flick night, the wedding planner.... I love it! yeah my friends are awsome, and to good for me.
ok well thats it for this random thoughts and thank yous from the captain.

hmm....

2005-06-16T02:46:00.000-06:00

life.......sometimes I wonder what its all about,if things will ever change or for ever be the same. yeah I know dramatic right, but ohwell sometimes a girl need s a little drama in her life.
whats all this about you might ask?, well I would tell you but then all this post would be is like two pages of venting and rants, and how fun is that? not very much fun I tell you.
Tell me this, what am I supposed to do when I have a house full of hungry teenagers,and neither me nor my room mate have much food to feed them. I would tell them to go eat at home, but alot of these kids are fresh off the street and have absolutley no other place to go, no family to turn to, and are basicly shunned from society. these kids are not only physicly hungry but they also have a great hunger for spiritual things aswell, one of the guys here is 19 and has just come out of a 3 year relationship in wich he was dumped, his family lives in loyd and doesn't want anything to do with him. cold yeah but hey, so is life sometimes.he has no income and at the end of the month will have no place to go. but inspite of all of this, he has taken a very deep interest in God, and has many questions that I can't answer, things that I don't really even begin to know myself, and thats the story with many of the kids that come here.
not every one of them is living on the street so to speak.sometimes its a case of an abusive parent or parents, sometimes its just because they have made some bad choices in life and now ended up like the rest. a few of them have become heavy drug users in thier young lives, but what ever the case they have been cast out by the world, they have no one.why they come here, I don't really know, how they all find out about this place I am not sure, but what ever the case on average we have about 10 kids plus me, john,my aunt, and devin that hang out here every day, in my little two bedroom appartment, usually its two or three more that come once and a while, for a hot meal and some friendly converstation.These are not bad kids, sure they have done some things wrong in thier lives, but hey who hasn't,nobody's perfect right.
every single one of the kids here are smart, talented in many ways, and can make it very far in life, but they don't see that, they see what the world sees, a bunch of screwed up kids who just sit around and have no purpose in life, no future, just a bunch of punks. but thats not true, these kids are great people with a great future ahead of them,and awsome possiblities, they are all some how still in school, and most of them are graduating within the next two years. one guy is graduating on friday and plans to go to med school in the fall. Well this is not the type of guy you would think wanted to go to med school, no,haha, he is gothic, well he thinks he is anyway, and a really shy guy, who if you saw him on the street you would probebly want to walk on the other side from him.but once you get to know him you see that he is smart, funny, and really nice, and has gone through hell, and back again but yet he still wants to g to med school and make something out of his life.
Every single kid/teen that walks through our door comes in knowing that my aunt is a pretty preechy/talkative person, and that she loves to feed people,most of the time they come for some food, and just someone who will talk to them, but they all end up on God and Jesus, and christianity before they realize it, some of them get a little nervous talking about things like God and go into the other room, but most of the time they sit around like a bunch of old ladies having tea and talk about the bible, and do little mini bible studies and things.its pretty interesting to just sit back and watch. every now and then a few of them will get up the courage and ask me to take them to church, its a big thing for them because alot of these kids have never stepped foot near a church before, its like a foriegn country to them. I always invite them openly and sometimes they accept but mostly they ask me when they are ready to go, witch is the way it has to be i figure.but once they get there they have a blast, they meet new people, and play around and eventually loosen up and become themselves. one kid asked me if they did stuff like that everyday at the church, I thought that was pretty interesting, a kid who has never been to church before in his life asking if he could go everyday....
I enjoy having these kids around and helping them out and such, but ...yeah..ok this is going to sound really selfish but, latley I have come to a breaking point in my own messed up kaotic life. I want to help these kids, and I want to help better there situation and all that, but I don't know if I am of any help at all right now. In my own life, and my own walk with God, it seems that I am hanging on to my faith by nothing but shreads...its like it has become nothing to me anymore and I don't know what to do about it. I mean ..ok.. Have you ever been in a place where someone wants to talk about something and that is probebly the last thing you want to think about?...did that make anysence,lol? these kids show up eagerly waiting to hear something new and exciting about God, and about his love, but I don't think I can do it anymore,but yet I can't give up on them either. things in my life have caused me to be in a place where I am seriously doubting what I believe, its not that I don't believe in God its just that ..where is he???...why is he not helping me??? .its like..hey God..down here..you remember me? faith?....haha that type of thing. and like I said I want to help these kids out with there questions, and such, but how can I if I am such a mess?,I havent even been to church in well over 5 months now. and yet they want me to take them there....wow that is selfish....
I don't know what I am supposed to do, they look to me for leaadership but yet I am in no place to lead them.
If you guys out there in the blogg world have any suggestions on what the hell I should do, or if you want to come check out what exactly has been going on around here, wth these kids and all, then don't hesitate, please, we ned more open hearted christians around her, who care about these kids, and the thousands more like them out there on the streets, when i say teens or kids, I mean kids any where from 9 to like 19 or 20,all different ages, all different walks of life, but yeah if you ever want to check things out, or if you have any suggestions about what I can do, don't hesitate, you know let me know becuase I am at a loss...but anyway its almost three am and I am tired, so I will go to bed ..good night...hope this makes any sence lol, I will probebly look at it in the morning and be like woah...what the f*** was I on?? lol.

**side note/edit** the guy I was talking about earlier, the one from loyd, well this afternoon he accepted christ into his life!!!!..good for you ..congrats!!!***

The sun Is out.... hooray!!!

2005-06-10T15:17:00.000-06:00

Wow iuts been two long cold weeks, but the sun cam out, I knew it still existed.Well one can't begin to describe how bored I am right now, I just spent most of the day at the doctors waiting to see about allergy medication and then she told me that there is no allergy meds covered by my plan....stupid doctor...acually...stupid drug plan....

I think that inlight of the fact that its sunny out and that I have absolutley NOTHING to do I am going to make an about me blogg. everything you've ever wanted to know about faith. just for the hell off it.
ok well here it is:
About me....
Name: Faith Villeneuve, Age: 19, hair colour: blonde now, natural..your guess is as good as mine,eye colour: sky blue, height: 5'4", weight:...yeah like you'll ever know lol, If I could describe myself in one word: Spontanious

And now for my list of top 5's

FAITH'S TOP 5:

Foods...of coarse
1.Salad
2.Nachos& salsa
3.Perogies,sour-cream,&chives
4.Green olives
5.Mac and cheese

Favorite drinks
1.Coffee
2.Dark roast coffee
3.Allen's vegtable juice
4.fresh orange juice
5.1% Milk

Favorite bands:
1.Linken park
2.The foo fighters
3.Audio adrenaline
4.U2
5.Collective soul
6.Creed.....there is 6 because I said tere is 6 lol

Favorite tv shows:
1.Lost
2.Family guy
3.brownwell high
4.Simpsons
5.Piolet guides/lonley planet

Favorite movies
1.Lord of the rings 1,2,&3
2.Empire records
3.Saved
4.Star wars, the complete serries

Favorite books
1.wait...whats a book?

Favorite hobbies
1.traveling
2.hanging with friends
3.listening to music
4.playing guitar/pianno/keyboard
5.being outside

Favorite places in canada
1.Victoria B.C.
2.West ed mall
3.the ocean...both of them
4.winnpeg..my home town
5.P.E.I.

ok well thats my list of Favorite things and a little bit about me, just for fun, and because i have no life lol but i have to go, incase i don't seeya, good after noon, good evening, and goodnight...can you guess where that is from???

ok so its been a while.......

2005-06-02T23:11:00.000-06:00

Wow I can't believe I let my blogg go un updated for so long... sorry guys,lol, ohwell.

So whats been happening with me, well lots and lots lol. from camping to YC, to edmonton this weekend again!, plus a whole bunch of other stuff that I will explain a bit more as my post drones on.

first off YC... wow, wow, wow, thats all I have to say, I lost my voice for three days after YC because of all the concerts, I managed to take in 21 concerts, atleast 9 speakers and sessions, games, west ed mall, and horse ridding all in three days lol. it was chaos. but I loved every minuite of it, except when I saw a guy break his ankle... that wasn't fun, hope he is doing good now.and when I got lost in west ed lol, but only for a minuite. but I had a really good time, and so did the people I brought with me wich I really wanted for them. I don't know wich band I liked most everyday sunday, or audio adrenaline, they are both really great bands

Here is a list of the concerts I saw this past weekend:
Hillsongs United, Delirious,John ruben,Out of eden, drentch, Oc supertones, Tree 63,grits,kutless,Audio Adrenaline,Thousand foot krutch,Sanctus real.And finally, Toby mac.
thats a lot of bands in one weekend. and out of them all I can't decide witch one was best lol, to many to choose from. but most of them were really good, some of the bands are well just not for me lol.but I really liked it anyway.Audio Adrenaline had the whole friggen stadium jumping, it was nuts it felt like the floor was going to give in or something.

as for the speakers and sessions, I liked a lot of what mike pilavachi had to say, but, I dunno I am confused about some of it, I mean like how is it that God can posibly want some of the stuff that goes on in life to happen to us, the so called 'deserts'. Things like kids who believe that there is no hope left and that the only way out is suicide, I mean like really, I am sure thats not in his plan. A lot of other things to things like abortion, and neglect,how is it possibly his will that innocent people, go hungry and homless, and in alot of cases die?
for instance the other night I woke up at 3 something in the morning because I heard a lady screaming call 911!!! and one of my neighbours, a really nice, working class, woman with a 6 year old boy, downed a bottle of pills. is that really what God had intended for her? or for that little boy to see? I mean like if God knows every thing before it happens and yadda yadda yadda, then why does it happen?
If god knows every one before they are born, and kno one is an accident then why is it that people are put into famillies where they get abused, or marriges break up, kids go to foster homes, things like that.....

I don't know the answers,maybe I never will know them, maybe its best that way, but what ever the case Yc was great, and really draining , mainly because I was sick the entire time, but it was awsome anyway. and so was staying at that ranch... and yes lol I did break into the horse penand go horse back ridding at 2 am, what can I say I love horses.

Now on with this weekend, lol looks like its back to edmonton for me lol. but not untill I complete volunteering for the kids festival and then tomorow celebrate my little brother's 14 birthday ( I can't believe he will be 14 already, he is my baby brother!!), After all of that I am heading out for a weekend in edmonton.. again, only this weekend I will be staying at a campground and living by the "shop till you drop" theory lol, I love west ed mall. and I can't wait to get there again, I think I am going to break my own traveling record this weekend four weekends in a row i will be out of town, first I went to my dad's reserve, then out at the lake, then YC, and now edmonton, its getting crazy i tell ya crazy,
ok well thats whats been happening with me, not that any one accually reads this blogg, or maybe they do and just don't comment????? but leave a comment anyway or hey hears a thught, you could just email me to.

Yoda is my hero, so small but yet so wize

2005-05-23T10:15:00.000-06:00

AWSOME!!!!
thats what I have to say about star wars episode 3, revenge of the sith. awsome awsome awsome movie. well acted, well done, even the camera effects are just incredible. I am not going to post much about what the movie was about because I don't want to blow it incase no one has seen it yet. I will tell you that I love the way that they show how evil can tempt a person, and how anakin is struggling between the "light" and "dark" sides so to speak. I think that was portrayed very well. and I think that it was acted well to. but anyway go and see the movie if you haven't done so yet, haha I am going for a second time tomorow. its funny because I wacthed episode 1 on saturday, episode 2 on sunday, and then I am going to see episode 3 again tomorow lol. and then no more starwars for a good 6 months lol.

so anyway enough about starwars for today, even if it was totally and completley awsome, and I will be seeing it again soon. And even though the guy who plays anakin skywalker is so much better looking in the third movie even if he is evil, lol. ok now I am really done talking about starwars lol...yeah right....

so this weekend is YC fun times, now that I found out I can officially go lol. I managed to find a spo with a church called emanual baptist I think, I know where the church is and thats all that reall matters lol. Its gonna be fun, the part I am waiting for most is thousand foot krutch....I love that band... wonder if they will sing the song "small town"...and also Kutless, AudioA etc... its gonna rock. plus I hear that we haveflor level seats this timeso it will be very very cool. siome people say that I am to old for YC, but I think that they are wrong, Yc is for anyone.