Gods calling.....

Ok so I have mentioned on here a few times before that God has given me a vision...mission so to speak. Well Finally I have come to the conclusion that life is pointless with out God, and it is also pointless if you keep on ignoring what God wants for you. For years probably about 3 years now, I have had this vision from God, this purpose for my life but I have been to stubborn and terrified to do a thing about it.
I had a vision of starting a HUGE missionary organization that could change the city for the good of Christ,change the youth, change the parents, change everything. but I was so afraid of it, afraid of what it could become. I was also afraid that I would fail,fail the people, fail the youth, fail every one, but most importantly fail God.So i did nothing and continued to live in this angering spiral of denial and frustration and failure..... but recently i stumbled across an opportunity that has really helped me a lot, I have been in school now for almost 3 months, I am 3 weeks away from finishing, me graduating with a grade 12..., and because I friggen aced my CPR and first aid, I got an opportunity to work with ST. Johns ambulance where i will get the complete training i need to be a licensed first responder witch is one step short of actual paramedic! I am happy about that, but more than all of this, God put me in this school to show me that 1. he believed in me all along, and 2.that i am not just a useless sack of crap. Also that just because I am certified in all of this now doesn't mean that his will for my life is going away lol.

I have prayed a lot, thought a lot lately and came to one conclusion.... yes the vision is big, but yes it can be done..... I am going to start a youth group....well I am not, i am just a pawn in the game of life, but God is going to... God showed me the church, its a very humble little downtown church with a congregation of about 40 people..... I have only gone there about 3 times but I am already close with that family,. Its got hard wood pews, old dusty retro green curtains (love the retro thing by the way lol) the carpet is old and ratty, but the church, the people, are so full of Gods love,. I can't exactly explain it but I mean, I walked in there and saw a youth group... in detail... I saw the kids hanging out, I saw people praying, I saw kids laughing and joking.... none of it was there but I could still see it... I know now what I am to do, and am starting to understand how to do it.
I haven't cleared this with the church yet or even talked to them about it yet, but I am sure they will be on board, I have no youth yet, no band nothing, no staff but I know God will send what he needs to be done, if we need a band he will send one, if we need staff he will find them, if we need kids.... he will bring them.... I know i must sound completely insane but this is with out a doubt the surest i have been about anything in a really long time.

an inner city ministry for Saskatoon youth,a safe welcoming place where kids can come, and get off the street away from the crime, and immorality and have a fun good time and just be the kids god created them to be. while doing this they can learn about Jesus and the gospel, and how to live it out in their own lives. a weekly meeting involving music, fellowship, and Gods love, creating a community of youth that God has chosen to help be a key part in changing the attitude city.
I am going to ask that if anyone who reads this can just pray for it, pray for the church, the youth, the staff, the group, pray for the vision, and pray that God will be the one in charge, otherwise its just not going to work, it will be like so many other pointless things in life, this has to be from God.
anyway this post is getting stupidly long lol so I will go now, but as things progress I will post more but please comment on this, I am in no way shape or form an experienced missionary....God called me and I answered, simple as that.... but Please pray for the group, that the church will allow it, and that The enemy will not have any power to stop this from happening.... because its going to happen..... lol....